Her father was diagnosed with <please guess> and his treatment didn't seem very positive. Her father lives overseas.
Other things were going on in my friend's life as well that she could not tell me. She would not spend as much time with me as she did earlier on. I wanted to be as supportive as I could. However, when she could not tell me the other things going on and she would at times cancel plans on me because she had to give time to these other important and personal things, I would get very jealous and possessive. I started feeling that maybe I was not as important a friend to her anymore and she didn't want to share everything with me or spend as much time with me. She did tell me that was not the case and she couldn't tell me certain things as they were very personal and she didn't always feel like going out because she was coping with her father's condition. Finally, she got sick of the endless arguments we would have and I think she felt smothered with my constant pestering her to spend time with me and my selfishness that she decided to break the friendship.
I feel terrible for not being a good friend and for getting so insecure in the friendship. Please let me know what can I do to forgive myself. I keep wondering how bad a person am I for the way I was with her. i feel like taking everything i did back. i wish her well.
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