I had a psychotic break, now I feel worthless?

Question

Im 28 I have no job, I never finished college becuase I have a severe mood disorder, It seems I can't think clearly I went crazy and broke my neighbors car windows and I called the cops that some kids did it I actually thought that and saw that in a haucination, I didn't even remember going outside at 3 am to break them, thats how creative my deusion was, now everybody knows me as the guy who just 'lost it' some call me a waste of space, some just laugh because they think im pathetic, I really just want peace in my life, has anyone else lived through something so absurd, Im feeing really low

Answer 1

you are fine-just relax, dont let people get to you. are you on any meds>

Answer 2

I didn't have quite as a severe break as you did. I just wanted to die and ended up in a psych ward too. I suggest you forget about the past and focus on living in the now. Don't worry about what others think. I know my friends and family probably think I'm nuts, but don't come out and say it. I just live my life the best way I know how. The important thing is to keep taking your meds and avoid a relapse. Also, find something in life that gives your existence meaning like a hobby, religion or sport.

Edit: I just wanted to mention that you should avoid letting your illness become who you are. Don't identify with your illness. Just forget it and move on. Don't let in consume your thoughts and actions.

Answer 3

Im sorry that happened to you. I really think you should see a therapist, you dont have to go on medication but atleast talk to someone about it. It will help you alot.

Answer 4

Yes!  I know exactly what you are going through.  

Just ignore the criticism and start getting your life back on track.  Try to go for as many job interviews as you can and you will eventually be able to get a job. See a clinical psychiatrist and continue taking your medications so that you dont have another relapse.  Keep a daily monitor on how you are coping, so that you know when you may need to check that your medications are right or not.  Take some classes at night school to learn a new vocation, and  set yourself a series of realistic goals for the next year.

Just take it one day at a time, one hour at a time and check yourself so that you will be fine.

Answer 5

YOU SOUND LIKE ME... BEFORE I WENT ON BI POLAR MEDS. MOST PEOPLE ARE STILL SCARED OF ME JUST FROM PAST EXPERIENCES EVEN THOUGH IVE BEEN STABLE FOR 2 YEARS. ITS NO FUN BEING THE OUTCAST.I WISH I COULD GIVE YOU SOME MAGICAL ADVICE THAT WOULD CHANGE YOUR LIFE, BUT I CANT. I CAN HOWEVER TELL YOU THAT I WAS PUT ON SEROQUIL 2 YEARS AGO AND IT HAS WORKED WONDERS FOR ME. YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE AND YOU DID WHAT YOU DID, JUST MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE THE BEST YOU CAN AND LET YOUR PAST BE YOUR PAST.

Answer 6

If you are ill and is taking your medicine and trying to get your life together don't let it worry you allot. People talked about Christ and he was a better person than any of us. Keep your head up and keep improving to get better. GOOD LUCK!!