I hate living but too scared to die. ending the catch 22?

Question

lets see im mentally ill (sociopathic to be more specific, possibly autistic), i have no family and no friends, i dont trust any kind of psychologist and religion is just bullcrap.

what next?

Answer 1

packup a bad and run. run until your too tired to think and keep running. sleep in the woods. or on a park bench. make your life a story.

Answer 2

sounds to me like you need serious help. you need to go see a doctor or something and try and get on some medication if you aren't already. trust me, it will help.

Answer 3

seek a therapist

Answer 4

Listen to yourSELF. You don't NEED religion or people whom you are not ready to talk to.

You are here, asking something regarding your life, you are searching for answers....that is what you live for, the things YOU want to discover.

You need to trust yourself with others...you don't just automatically trust people, that is understandable in this day and age.

Improve yourself continuously. Embrace uncertainty....those who seek certainty are often those who are very unhappy and unsatisfied with their life. I have been there too. Now I realize all I really have is MYSELF. We all are born alone, and in a sense, we also die alone.

All the best to your journey, and pls don't give up. Dying is easy, but living is a MIRACLE if you survive through it.

Answer 5

Try To Clean Yourself Up Fix Everything Whatever You;re Thinking dont do it its not  worth it

Answer 6

But there is always God :)  More powerful than any friends, family, etc.  He will see you through.

Answer 7

Its your mental condition that is talking not you.  Go to a doctor and admit that you have contemplated suicide.  Take one step at a time.  Today I will do the best I can at what I have to do.

One step, one day at a time.  Trust the doc not the voices in your head.  

Answer 8

you answered your own question, if your too scared to die, you can't really hate living, maybe you hate how your living.  YOU can fix that.  There are a ton of ways to find meaning in life.  Go join a group, go find some poor sucker of a burn victim, or someone who lost a child, see how they overcame.  Anger management might be a good place to start.

Answer 9

If you are on a spectrum you are expected to have some issues with social conventions so sociopathy and autism are two different things even though the symptoms can overlap. Many autistic individuals find solace in communicating with each other via computer or any other text based device regarding how much NT world sucks. I'm sure you can find one right now at any of the autism discussion boards that will share your 'world sucks' attitude as we speak. Plus you seem depressed and it's yet another issue that needs to be addressed separately and perhaps by a medical doctor (gp will do) in a form of an antidepressant script so you don't even have to try verbal kind of therapy.

Answer 10

OK your assignment should you choose to take it is: 40 days of a gratitude journal listing 5 things you are thankful each day ( even if it is the pleasure of a nice bowl movement).

This tape will self destruct within 5 seconds.

Answer 11

Autistic people wouldn't usually log onto yahoo answers and create coherent sentences like this, I doubt you are autistic first of all.

Now what can you possibly be scared of?  No god, no afterlife.  If you die, it's all over.  You made no mark, you gave nothing, you won't be remembered.  That is what you are truly scared of, disappearing.

Now, I am not trying to say jump, in fact I am saying quite the opposite.  You need to work hard to become someone.  Even the manager of Burger King.  Make your name, stake your place.  If you start working for it, you might get slapped down a few times but you will eventually get your corner of the world and you can carve your name in that tree.  Don't give up and don't give in.  Striving for greatness is the only way to become great.  You can do it.

Answer 12

Perhaps you need to take some interest in nature, the things around you, the scheme of things in the environment. I read a most interesting true story in the Readers Digest many many years ago. There were tow very good friends. at 2.00 o- clock one morning Fred was awakened by a telephone call from his friend John. John was terribly upset and on the verge of ending his life. Fred imediately offfered to go over and talk to John, which he did. He told John that he had someting at his office he wanted to show him. He drove John to his office and pointed to a large sea shell on his desk. and asked John to pick it up. It was a most delicate, wafer thin shell in perfect condition. ( to be continued). Fred explained that many years ago, he was also at a stage in his life where everything that could go wrong had gone wrong. He had decided to end it all while down at his weekender on the waterfront. He started walking down to the waters edge  intent on wading in and not returning. As he entered the lapping water something gently brushed his foot. He reached down and picked up that sea shell which John was now holding. He realised that this perfect shell had been in the sea, tossed and turned with the waves  for a very long  time but had remained intact. Quite obviously the shell had moved along with the tide. This was its secret for survival. This made John realise that in order to survive we must  swim with the current of life and not against it. The shell stays on Fred's desk as a constant reminder that life is worth living and we all need to learn how to live with the ebb and flow of it.

Answer 13

Everything happens for a reason even if you may not agree with it at the time so you may not have family or friends and maybe mentally ill and yea may feel like f*ckin sh*t right about now but things get bad and worse until they can get good and that just makes the good seem that much better and you appreciate it more. Life sucks it isnt fair but everyone is here for a reason you just gota see wat that is. Friends are overrated i dont got friends either i just got people that i talk to at them moment that end up being a memory n my f*cked up like. Look when you think things are going bad for you just member someone is going throug much worse. Like me for example i was molested at a very young age then when i was a teenager i had s*x with some guy n many say it was rape seeing that he was older n i didnt want it then my family found out and i was molested by my cousins when i was asleep then i recently got pregnant by my long time bf and lost them baby now his dumb *** mom wont let us see each other and being a lil B*tch about things much other stuff. happened but watever its life and life goes on and gets better. If you needa talk email me at [e-mail]. Dont kill yourself its not worth it things will get better you just dont see that right now. But honestly people can tell you not to but its your descion in the end only you can make that chose but just ask yourself is it worth it i mean really cus thats not something you can just take bak. Hope everything works out for you and sorry bout getin into my story you probly didnt want to hear that and btw im sure there will be people who answer you talkin **** and sayin stupid **** but just dont listen to them cus there idiots. Take care BTW i this is the answer to then other question you deleted.  

Answer 14

you're intelligent enough to recognize your downfalls, and that they are not good enough for you, but don't shut anyone out.  i know what it's like to have no support group, and it's very lonely.

what next?  take heart.  you are not alone.  psychologists aren't evil, and so aren't the clergy(even though i am with you).  you are asking for help right now.  take it to the next level.  put your burden on the shoulders of those who are being paid to take that burden.  believe me...i agree and feel your pain, but make change by being the firery spirit you exhibit.

[e-mail]...i work in a grainery not a church.  chat if you want to.