My husband and I have only been married for the past nearly 8 months, and most of those have not been happy ones. When we were going through a tough time awhile back, I began catching up with an ex-boyfriend from several years ago. Ever since then, unfortunately, I've been falling more and more in love with him. I've regreted every day of my life for breaking up with my ex, and I know I should've never gotten married to another man; I married for the wrong reasons. I care very deeply for my husband, but I've fallen head over heels for my ex. He knows me better than i know myself, and I connect with him better than anyone else in my life. If soul mates were real, I know my ex would be mine. My husband is going off to the air force soon, and my ex is leaving for college today. I don't know what to do I love them both which consequentally makes me loathe myself completely how can I do this? I hate life right now. How can this happen? I know now my ex is who I should really be with, but I could never leave my husband. Every girlfriend he's ever had has cheated on him or left him for someone else and I don't want to do that...should I try my hardest to get over my ex, get a divorce, or just freakin kill myself? Cause seriously, i feel like **** right now...
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