My parents, while they obviously tried their best to raise me, have really done nothing but given me grief, depression, social anxiety and self-esteem issues with their negativity, blaming every issue that I have on ME, and never ever even considering once that they might have something to do with it and letting out their anger about other issues onto me when I was a teenager. They always focus on how fat I apparently am, always on looks. The most important thing my mum cares about is her image, no matter how much she denies it, actions and behavior speak louder then words of course. She always critizes and judges people. My dad just has huge abandoment and self-esteem issues because he was adopted and unloved as a child, and has an explosive temper although it's calmed down over the past year since he got type 1 diabetes from neglecting himself. They both have no friends, no real social life, especially my dad who still likes to work to his grave.
Basically...I'm sick of feeling sorry for him and feeling like all my parents problems are because of me...that's exactly how they made me feel for so many years. Habouring all that guilt and self-hatred and not being able to develop properly as a person has turned me half-mental. And they wonder why I had to tell a relative about it and see a psychologist as well as go onto anti-depressants....and have anger and ignorance against me doing that. LOL.
I am desperate to get away from them and their bad influence, I am old enough to move out but still going to uni and cannot afford anything right now...meanwhile, can anyone suggest things I can do so their stupidity doesn't rub off on me while I'm still here because while I'm more distant towards them their unconstructive comments still anger and hurt me .TYVM.
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