I hate the Stigma of Taking Birth Control Pills? HELP!

Question

Alright I am messed up. Please read this and give advise.

Ok, I HATE s*x because of past abuse. Within the past year, I was sexually assaulted and given an STD.

I had s*x with two men in high school. They were both my boyfriends and I had s*x with them because I loved them. Looking back, one only dated me so he wouldn't look g*y (There were rumors of him being g*y so he needed a hot girl to make him look straight.) The other one dated me just for s*x and also to brag to his friends about me.

I "loved" them but they just used me. Prior to the assault, I had not had s*x in 3 years.

I HATE s*x. I hate thinking about it because those guys I dated just used me....And that s*x attacker gave me an STD.

Anyways, I have endometriosis and I take birth control pills to treat the disease. I need to take the pills everday or else I get really bad periods that make me sick. I went to Planned Parenthood to get birth control cheap, and they always assume I am sexually active. They put in my records that I am sexually active, even after I explained that I take them for endo. I don't want lies being put in my records!!!! I hate them thinking I am sexually active.

I HATE having s*x. It makes me feel like a complete object...That is why I have not willingly had s*x in three years. Those boyfriends used and abused me...as well as the s*x attacker.

Should I stop taking birth control pills? I HATE TAKING THEM. i hate having to tell doctors when they ask what meds I am on....I hate them kind of looking surpised that I say it in frnot of my mother. Then I explain that it is for Endo.

I hate going to planned parenthood.....I hate them assuming I hvae s*x and they are "saving" me from getting pregnant. I hate these pills. I bet peoplet hink I am sexually active.

I hate feeling like a w***e. I feel so promiscuous when I go to PP. Everyone think I must be sexually active if I go there. I hate it there!!!! Why can't they be nice and believe me that I am not having s*x.

I want to get married one day and find a husband who will love me...and just date me so he can brag about me or use it so others don' think he is g*y.

please help me. should i stop taking the pills? then i will get sick but at least i wont have the stigma. i HATE feeling promiscuous HELP ME. what if my employer finds out I went to ppp? they will assume i use them to not get pregnant

Answer 1

First of all, throughout anyone's life, there are people who will make false assumptions about you to do with lots of issues. That's not right or just but it happens all the time. Only the people at PP are thinking anything wrong about you. Your employer can't legally even ask you about getting birth control from PP or anywhere else so don't worry about that.

You've told the people at PP the truth and they didn't believe it. So what!! You know what is true and you know you need the pills for a serious medical condition. So keep taking the pills and just ignore the yo-yos at PP.

You can't control what they think but you can control how you think of yourself. Don't let their attitudes tear down your self-esteem. Be strong in yourself and keep taking the pills for your health. That is the most important thing.

Answer 2

You have got to stop worrying about what others say!  you sound like such a sweet girl.  If anyone asks what medicine you are just say that you are on one for your period and leave it at that.  When you go to planned parenthood, walk with your head high , and know that you are there to help yourself, not because you have to be there.  Employers are not privileged to this kind of information, so do not worry about that.

I would not stop taking the medicine if it helps.

Answer 3

Don't worry about it.

Seriously.

You have to discuss it what, once a month? For about 5 minutes...

But if you didn't you'd have to cope with terrible periods for what a week out of every month?

I'm on birth control to for periods rather than s*x, however I don't have your past so I can't pretend to understand that.

But seriously don't worry about it.

Even if they do think you have s*x, they're not concerned by it as a matter, you're embarrassed by it- but doctors and employers aren't!

Try and feel better. Good Luck.

Answer 4

When a doctor asks you what medication you are on then simply say " because of my endo I take BBPs."  Doctors don't care what you do.  I know that it can be very embarassing but they see how many people a day.  Continue to take them.  Don't let what other people might or might not be thinking endanger your health.  If your employer finds out, so what its your private life not professional.  Try not to worry about it so much.  If you don't tell anybody, how will they know that your taking them?

Answer 5

I am so sorry for what happened to you.  I can feel how you are hurting in what you wrote.  Don't worry about what they think at PP.  They have their own agenda.  No one has to find out that you are going there.  You don't have to have s*x with anyone now.  Wait, and someday, you will enjoy making love with your husband, and he will love you, and it will be good.  I also have endometriosis, and you need to make sure that you get proper care from your doctor.  If you don't get medical attention, and treatment for this, then you could become infertile.  

Answer 6

It is all your perception of stigma.

Most people don't really care if someones on birth control. They don't judge the person either way, positive or negative.

s*x is a part of life, everyone you meet is a product of the act.

Don't confuse perception and reality.