I have OCD (Obesssive & Compulsive), and let me tell you, it's VERY frustrating. It makes me stay up later so that I can do WORTHLESS things, and I HATE THAT. I take longer to get ready for school because of my ocd. It REALLY affects me, badly, too. I HATE it :'(. Now, that's my obsessive side. My compulsive side, however, is, certain thoughts that I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY DON'T want to happen, popping up into my head and my ocd says "I DO" want all those things to happen but I REALLY don't. Sometimes I'll be walking, until one of those horrible thoughts pops into my head that my mind claims I want to happen (the ocd part of my mind). So, I have to stop, walk back, and walk again but this time try not to have that thought remained in my head as I get to my checkpoint. YEAH, it's that bad, and it's SO hard to do that, too :'(. I'm suffering, alot. My Anxiety in the past has been VERY severe, but now even though I still have it, it's VERY mild. Although OCD is VERY severe nowadays.
So, yeah, it's affecting me. So far I haven't told ANYONE that I have ocd, not even FAMILY!! The only people I have told is those on Yahoo Answers. The reason I haven't told my loved ones is because, I just KNOW they will think I'm completely RETARDED. Sometimes while getting ready to go to bed, I struggle to put my pants away because, I do it over and over again, while trying to do it WITHOUT those thoughts that I DON'T want to happen that my ocd mind claims I DO want to happen.
So if you can... please... please.. help me.. I feel like I want to cry. If you need ANY information @ all in order to help me, PLEASE do not hesitate to ask. I am 110% WILLING to answer your questions so you can help me. Just send me an email.
Thank you VERY much and I'm sorry for the size of the above.
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