I am going to a big university in Florida, I transferred from a small community college. In the small community college I had friends in my classes but no friends outside of school. So I thought you know I should probably transfer to a big institution after I'm done at community college because out of the 45000 people who go here I HAVE to make at least one REAL friend right? I also moved into an on campus apartment and figured I'd make friends with my roommates as well. So far I'm completely alone. For the past week or so I've been stuck in my room with nothing to do, but somehow my roommates who are international students and don't even know complete english always have somewhere to go, some kind of party, or somewhere to hang out, while I'm the loser who can't even make friends in his own country. What is the matter with me? What should I do? Maybe I have some kind of social disorder that I don't know about? I'm just so tired of being the one people think of as "the smart one" you know for once I wanna make my OWN friends and go out and party like other people my age do. I've tried to join clubs but they don't even start for new members for a month and a half. I even went so far as to sign up to rush for a fraternity (which is not something anyone who knows me would ever think I would do). I'm thinking of transferring to a school that's farther away or something because there might be more transfer students who are completely alone too. I even go on random walks by myself just to kill time. One time when I was coming back from the bookstore some guy asked me if I wanted to play frisbee and in my head I said yes but what came out what "sorry I can't"...again I ask can someone please tell me what is wrong with me....I just don't wanna be alone anymore. Please someone help me??!!...I feel like crying and I'm a guy who hasn't cried since I was like 10....
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