I have not had 1 friend in six years. It feels like I am being tortured by Satan's deepest fear.?

Question

I know it is my patterns of behaviour that keep me from being social. I try and get out there. But I can't build relationships where people want to hang out with me. It is like so frustrating. I am soon to be 18 and evvvveery saturday night I am alone watching movies to ease the pain and eating junk food. I don't have a weight problem or anything. But I am wondering if my mental problem could keep me friendless for eternity? Hypothetically in heaven I guess in addition to when I say eternity I mean for the rest of my life. Time moves slow when you hate your life. I have no good insurance so I can't get counseling, or therapy as much as I need them. It makes me feel like I am living in h**l.

Answer 1

Im sorry. email me. it'll be free therapy.

Answer 2

What do you mean by "patterns of behavior"- maybe I can be your friend!

Answer 3

you know im 12 and i had a friend at my old school who was 13 turning 14 he ha d adhd and tried killing me with a compass but i never let that get in the way because all his friends got scared and after they saw him try and kill me they thought i was mentall to but im not i just didnt want him to be left out and he was gratefull now what you should do is not worry about your issue it cant get in the way of your life if you dont let it so at least keep on trying to  make friends go on virtual websites like habbo hotel and imvu and make friends on that im sure they will love you for who you are GOOD LUCK