I just dont know anymore

Question

I'm really just always depressed, always. I have no doctor too ashamed to tell my splitting parents.

I always just hate confrontation with anyone

I have problems too deep to tell anyone here i feel like i have no one to talk to anymore since my best friend left.

I just feel like suicide is too low for me especially with all the people with ridiculous conditions way bigger than i can imagine.

I'm really fake too i never have a smile on my face and if i do its totally fake.

I really don't know what to do anymore i don't value life and it really upsets me and i have racing thoughts of suicide always.

what my question is, is what should i do i don't want to end up commiting suicide in a rage or anything.

i need a new way to just be happy i have friends im out with all the time with i just don't feel comfortable around anyone anymore.

Answer 1

You NEED to seek counseling.  Just tell your parents you want to see a counselor.  There's nothing to be ashamed about.  The longer you put off getting help, the worse you'll feel.  And it sounds like you may not have the biggest time frame to get help before you're beyond help.

Answer 2

Well, if you're parents are splitting, I'm guessing that's one of the reasons you're feeling depressed. If that's the case, you really shouldn't feel ashamed to tell your parents. They're the ones who care about you, and they can help you through it. It's your choice, but that's your best option. Also, you can go see your doctor who can give you some medication that can help relieve depression. Also, just hang out with your friends, sometimes just being around people when you feel upset makes you feel better. :]]

Answer 3

have you gone to see a psychiatrist?? maybe it might help to go see one. or you might some kind of "mental disease" down syndrome, bipolar disorder etc. you might also wanna go see your med.

Answer 4

Find one thing you'd really miss if you were gone.  Hold on to that one thing.  Tell people you truly trust how you feel.  

Answer 5

as a survivor of suicide, let me tell you something, when you feel like that you need to seek professional help. i spent a year in a psychiatric hospital, best thing my parents ever did for me.. i was only 14 at the time.. thank GOD they came home when they did, you may even need anti depressants, but that ok, found out it was a chemical imbalance in my brain that wasn't releasing my serotonin properly, which is why i didn't feel happy like i was supposed to, but thankfully, i don't need them now, been off for about a year, and i'm totally ok, still have the rough days, where all i want to do is die, but that is part of life, maybe get a coping skill, which is what a counselor, or therapist will show you. i write, sing, talk to someone, i have been known to bury myself in  my job occasionally when something is bothering me. if you want to you can email me at [e-mail]..  i'm always around, and i do answer my email. so just seek some help, but just to answer your question, i do think about suicide just about daily still, but then i think about all the people that would miss me, and i make myself see something positive.  

Answer 6

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Answer 7

Hi I know how you feel! I also suffer from long-term depression and understand how it feels when suicide seems like the only option. I am also very depressed at the moment, I wake up feeling awful everyday.

What you really need to do is speak to someone about this. A counselor, a family member, even people like us on-line can help you. Depression is really common so don't feel like you are alone either. Exercise, go for a run or a walk... that will definitely help clear your head. Do something you enjoy everyday like watch your favourite TV show, read a book, etc. Lastly, make an appointment with a doctor ASAP... especially since you are feeling suicidal you definitely need to seek help for this. I know I was a bit embarrassed to speak to my doc about this at first, but when I did she was so helpful and referred me for therapy and.... it's true what they say... a problem shared is a problem halved!

P.S. my email is open if you want to chat feel free :)

Answer 8

wow im depressed

and went 2 a doc.....they dont work so do bother 2 go

but never attempted suicide.....tell the doc that they will put u in a nut house.

u said ur best friends left maybe thats why try finding new friends 2 hang out.....u need someone 2 talk 2

i sound like my mother gosh

Answer 9

It's depression.  It's very treatable.  Ask your mom or your dad if they would please make you an appointment with a psychiatrist so you can get medication for it.  Maybe you're waiting for them to notice and come up with the idea first, but they won't, especially since they're distracted with their divorce.  Do it.  You'll get better.  I promise.