I just feel so sad and hopeless.?

Question

I've been having an unbearably rough time lately. I've been fighting with all my friends and they all hate me because I get upset and accidentally lash out at people.... I even called my classmate a ***** when I was feeling really upset! I feel sad and lonely all the time, even when I'm with people I love, and I try to smile and be happy for them but then I go home and cry and cry and cry. I have even kept answering people's questions on Answers because I don't want to let any one down. But I feel like I'm letting myself down. I also sometimes wonder if anyone would care if I suddenly was gone. I've even had the same dream over and over again where I slit my throat with scissors and lie bleeding on my bedroom floor... and then I wake up and sob my eyes out. Everyone tells me to lay off the emo act and says I'm faking it but I'm not. I really feel horrible all the time, and it's all I can do to keep acting happy for the people who love me....and besides, I can't tell my family because I started to one day and they laughed at me and told me to quit with the drama. Please, I need someone to talk to. To listen to me. Anyone! Please???

Answer 1

Hi there :)

I use to feel that way too.

I use to get terrible anxiety and have a short fuse.

Chances are there are just things in your life that are weighing you down. You should think up a plan about how to change it.

I wouldn't tell just anyone about your thoughts of suicide however, not becuase its unnatural, but they might want to slap you on some meds. I beat my depression without meds. And meds dont fix what is really wrong in your life. It just numbs it.

You just have to realize that your brain does this to you on purpose when things in your life are out of whak. It's your bodies tough love way of prodding you to change the things that are wrong.

I think you should talk to a professional, sometimes just talking helps you figure out what is wrong.

Keeo your chin up :) Don;t fake a smile! unless you really need to.

People use to tell me to smile all the time. And i would want to tell them to eff off. Why not ask me if everything is alright rather then assuming I'm an angry emo punk teen?  Don't let them get to you.

Answer 2

You really need to get medical attention.  Depression is real.  You can get help from a psychiatrist.  If it is really bad then you need to go to the ER.  

Answer 3

stop thinking that way be postive in your life women

Answer 4

Dearest One,

Please give me a moment of your time.  I felt your pain coming through. I realize it's real and it hurts.  There's no way to make you understand it's "not forever", because this is how it feels to you now.

The fact you've answered others doesn't make your problems less.  However, it has to have helped you deal with many issues when you've read others have the same problems you're having.  This is what makes the world go round with us humans on a day to day basis.  Just knowing we aren't alone on this planet going through difficult times.  The same is true of joyous times.  We want to share them with others. Right?

As I read you question it was filled with so many "I's, me and my".  Do you think maybe you have the power to cause this much trouble for so many?  At home? At School?  No one has this kind of power.  No one, except Jesus Christ himself.

If you are a teenager, how are you letting yourself down?  Is it you're spending too much time on the computer and not enough time on school work?  Could this be why your grades aren't good?  Once the grades drop one doesn't feel good about oneself. You know it's because you've not prioritized your life.  It's not due to you being dumb, is it?  I can tell from how you write, you're smart.  

The feeling of failure is over whelming when we create it from being too lazy to study. However, there are many ways to catch up.  All  you have to do is talk to you school counselor and ask for a tutor, if you're serious about getting your grades up.  There are many college students who want to tutor kids for the experience and do it for free.

Next please look in the Yellow Pages for a Church of your choice.  Call until you find a Youth Pastor to talk to about these problems. What you tell him will be held in the strictest of confidence.  Blurt out your heart to him on the phone.  I'm sure he doesn't have to know your name to talk to you.  Just pick up the phone and do this for yourself today.  If it's night when you read this call the Crisis Hot Line.  They will listen to you cry all you want to.  They are trained to talk to people just like you.  No, they will not send someone to come get you.  It's confidential, also.

Don't give your family a hard time. With seven people there.  That's seven personalities.  Your mother has seen this come and go. She is smarter than you think and knows you better than anyone.  I'll bet you are a sweet heart with a real smile on your face most of the time.

Please call the Church and the Crisis Hot Line.  You do need to talk to outside professionals.  I'm not a professional by any means, but I do care.

Blessings to you<><:)

Answer 5

you need to figure out what is making you so depressed, then work from there.

Answer 6

Don't know anything about you, but I would guess you're angry because of something in your past.

Be strong, think 5 years from now

If you are a teen please get yourself an education

It WILL change your life

You are in control, get a goal look ahead and dream of a great furture!

Take care

Answer 7

Hunny I struggle w/ the SAME THING! I swear!

I am always so lonely! I'm so shy and I can't reach out to people so I feel your pain.

It's so hard....I've even struggled w/ eating issues and cutting because I've been so depressed...

I'm 22 and i've been struggling w/ it since I was in High School, so I know how you feel, it's not like I don't.

All I can say is to just find some goals and interests and emberse yourself in them! Whatever it is that you love, reach out and do it!

Go to the library to learn about things your interested in...

listen to music you love

spend more time outside in nature

take care of yourself, exercise, eat healthy, meditate, pray, ect...

Maybe read some books on depression and self improvement/self help.

If you ever need to talk just e-mail me on here and i will give you my e-mail/screen name!

Please just try to cheer up too! Maybe a good night's rest will make you feel better!

xoxo

Answer 8

Here is an excellent article.

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

As I said in a previous post, I nor nobody else can help you because you are not giving the details as to why you are contemplating suicide. If you are willing to add details I can further help you.

As for now, I would recommend you see your school psychologist. I would recommend you go after school hours so nobody sees you. School psychologists are free and they are completely confidential. Honestly, I would never see a school psychologist because I would feel uncomfortable.

Therefore, I would recommend you talk to some close friends or family. YOu said you cant talk to family however, so talk to close friends.

Invite them to the movies and dinner. Talk to them about it then. If the oppurtunity doesnt come up, try again another time.