Goodness. I've got this crazy crazy crazy crush on this guy at my school who's in the same year as me. He knows who I am, we've talked like a couple times but not had a real proper conversation.. or well one.
I've got 2 classes with him, Finnish and French. I've never felt this way before about anyone. I just.. can't explain it. It's become stronger now, everytime I think of him it feels like I'm blushing but in reality, I don't. My cheeks warm up and I feel all fuzzy inside. And I almost start crying when I think of him. Haha, cheesy I know. Yesterday, I had my confirmation and seeing him in a suit.. was just.. wow, I can't even find the word for it. On Friday we had school swimming and I got to see him shirtless. Okay, no need for more information. :P He's really funny, at least in class, and he seems genuinely really nice. He seems like he is a bit like me, personality-wise. He's not really that popular, at least what I've seen(see him very often around school), he's got friends though, but I haven't seen any girls going up to talk to him much. He lives in the same part of town as I do, and we take the same bus. I really just wish I had a good reason to talk to him, I don't want to just randomly say, 'hi' or something. 'Cause I've never done that, and he might think it weird that I suddenly start doing it.
Last night I had this dream where he was at my house and my friends were there too and tons of my classmates. Everybody left that night, and the next day there was this phone on the table and I thought it might be his, and then I went up to him the next day and asked if it was his. It wasn't, but we talked for a while because of it.
I just wish that would happen in real life!! I've done the obvious things, like looking at him in class, pointing my feet towards him, smiling, those sorts of things. I know he's noticed that. I'm really shy though, well I'm shy until the person truly knows me. With my friends, I'm not shy at all, I'm very fun and outgoing. But I'm a bit of a wimp sometimes. What can I do, and how can I talk to him without actually telling him I like him, and so that I don't make it awkward? I want to talk to him, but not forcing myself. Just something easy to ask that can lead to a conversation maybe? :) I really need advice! Thanks in advance, if anyone answers that is. :)
I know I've posted this several times today. Last time I asked this I got one answer, but I'd really like more answers.
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