I'm going through a midlife crisis (although i'm 14). Well, i thought i was really talented at this thing. I won every competition i entered, i was selected to be in gifted programs and everyone said i was the a genius at it. And i had been told this all my life, so of course i believed that i was brilliant at it. In-fact, my whole self esteem was based around the fact that i though i WAS the best. But the other day i came across a child prodigy on TV that was even better than me. I have come across other people that i know were in the same league or maybe higher - but this girl was out of this word! I am at the stage she was when she was 8! And she is two months younger than me! I'm crushed. I know realize that i'm not good at all, i only just qualify for adequate. The only reason i was respected as talented is because i am the best out of the worst!
I'm absolutely devastated that all i thought i was turned out to be nothing at all. I can't even explain how hurt i am. The "thing" is my life. It's all i've ever been good at. Now i am nothing. I HATE this girl for her talent! And i hate her for doing this to me! A week ago i was happy and had a promising future because i thought i could go the distance. How can i ever be happy again?
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