Back in 1975, I had a little brother that I never met. He was my mother's first born baby and he died at 10 weeks old from SIDS. The following year, I was born on the anniversary of his death. It was just a freak coincidence. I have pictures of him, and I miss him terribly, even though I never knew him. I had a really rough childhood, my mother was very mentally unstable, and used to leave my brother, sister and I for months at a time with my grandfather. When she was gone, we wern't sure if she would ever come back. There has been speculation over the years, that my mother was responsible for my brothers death. I do not know if this is true as I have never seen the death certificate (I tried to get it, but I was unable too because of my state's laws). To pay tribute to my brother, I used his name for my first born son's middle name. Allen (my baby brother), birthday is coming up in October, and I'd like to do something special for his grave site this year. Does anyone have any suggestions?
On a side note: I haven't spoke to my mother in about 8 years. She's not really capable of having any real relationships, and it's been to hard to have contact with her, so she is not a resource for me. My biological father is also not really a part of my life, he gave up his parental rights when I was 18 months old.
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