I need MAJOR help.With Cutting. someone help me please..?

Question

ok.. so i cut myself..and i am not emo, i am a preppy girl..with scars on the outside..but anyway, i do, and i have stoped.. but about a week ago i snapped.. it seems like when i am angry or depressed about something, if i cut myself it relaxes me.. I NEED HELP!!! please dont make fun of me.. i have ben to counceling.. and in groups but they dont work.. i just cant seem to stop...!

PLEASE HELP!

Answer 1

IF YOU ARE A CUTTER OR THINKING ABOUT CUTTING OR QUIT CUTTING THAN DONT HESITATE THIS MESSAGE WILL ONLY TAKE A FEW MINUTE'S OF YOUR TIME NOTHING MORE PLEASE JUST READ THIS TO HELP YOURSELF AND HELP YOU OPEN YOUR EYE'S, IF AFTER YOU READ THIS, AND HAVE ANY QUIESTIONS  THAN  FEEL FREE TO MESSAGE ME

WARNING;;

Before you make that first cut, remember--

You will find the blood and pain release addictive.

Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren't deep and will heal easily THINK AGAIN--

They will get deeper.

They will scar.

They will take sometimes months to heal OR NEVER HEAL AT ALL.

And years for the scars to fade.

If you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your body think again.

It will spread when you run out of skin.

Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame.

Even if you are the most honest person ever to live--

You will find yourself lying to the people you love.

You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were dipped in poison.

You will be terrified that they will feel something under the cloth of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to be touched.

Be prepared to get so out of control you fear your next cut because you don't know how bad it will be.

Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into 100.

Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around thinking about cutting--

Cutting and covering up cutting.

And just wait till that first time you cut "too deep."

And you freak out because the blood won't stop and it just keeps pouring and all you do is watch and have nothing left to feel...

And you are gasping...

And you feel yourself shaking all over.

You are having a panic attack and you are terrified but you can`t tell anyone because your too afraid that they'll throw you to some mentel intitution or make you see a counler.

So you sit there alone...

Praying it will be okay--

Swearing you'll never let it go this far again but you and I very well know that it will happen again...

and further....

Don't worry, you will learn how to take care of your cuts so that you can go deeper and deeper and avoid the ER.

And the better you get at treating your cuts you wont be able to stop cutting become's a necissary need for you like eating and sleeping,

The deeper they get and you will be stained and marked by it like a growing desease.

You will lie to yourself and justify it, thos foolish game you have started, and soon you'll find youself spending 20, 30, or 50 dollars every time you go the pharmacy.

You will feel the flutter of your heartbeat everytime you go to the counter to ring up your order as people stare in aww and pity you like the sick patient you are, you will then need....

Butterfly strips--

3 or 4 different kinds of dressings...

Betadine...

Antibiotic cream...

Medical tape...

Scar reducers...

pain relief pills....

You will tap your foot impatiently hoping the line will just move and noone will stare at you or wonder why you need all these things.

And at the same time secretly hope someone will notice--

Someone who is standing in line with an armful of the same supplies.

Someone who understands--

But of course that never happens.

Medical supplies won't be the only thing you spend all your money on.

Be prepared to buy a new wardrobe--

Longsleeve shirts, turtle necks in summer colors, bracelets, wristbands, boots...

The list goes on and on.

You will start looking at everyone in a different way.

Scanning their bodies for any signs of SI or any scars.

Just hoping that you might meet someone like you so you don't feel so terribly alone.

You wont even think about it,

As your eyes scan their wrists arms.

Hoping, just hoping they will be like you.

But they are not.

You will see their clean arms and feel terribly ashamed and alone.

You will start doing a lot of things alone.

You will always have to wash your laundry in private so no one sees the blood stains on your clothes and towels.

You will always be cleaning up the blood.

Scrubbing your bathroom floor.

Wiping the blood off your keyboard, the shower, inthe car, in a closet anywere that is stained.

You won't be able to make it through a day without cutting.

Next thing you know you are in a public bathroom somewhere breaking open a scab with a sewing needle that you keep in your wallet for emergencies.

When you get really desperate,

Anything will be a cutting tool...

Scissors...a car key...a needle...a paperclip...even a pen.

Doesn't matter what it is if you need to cut bad enough you will find something, anything, anthing to feel that feeling of quick slits that sting as you cry and the red blood dripps with your salty clear tears.

Say goodbye to things you took for granted.

Like wearing shorts or sandals...pedicures...sleeveless... tops.

A normal summer day at the beach or in a swimming pool will become a far off memory for you, and maybe eben LOVE.

Get ready to itch.

Because you will itch and itch.

So much you will look like you have fleas or a skin disease.

You will become an expert on your body as you destroy it carefully with every knife in your pocet or razer under your pillow.

You will dream about cutting.

You will dream about being exposed.

It will haunt you day and night and take over your life until the day nothing is left.

You will wish you never made that single first cut because while you absolutely hate cutting--

At the same time you love it and can not live without IT.

I hope after reading this you realize the consequences of cutting in itself though you fell that your all alone your not, I've seen friends change this dreadfull habit while just opening up to a friend, there has to be somebody that understands and even if you cant think of someone at the moment feel free to share your feelings with me I JUST WANT TO HELP.

Answer 2

I'm with you. I used to cut and I hate how people stereotype cutting as an emo thing! I am not even close to emo! You can try alternative things like snapping a rubber band on your wrist or rubbing an ice cube on it. It works for me to go running, doesn't work for everyone but you might want to give it a shot.

Answer 3

when i went through that i took up guitar and taught myself how to play when i felt like cutting so when you feel like cutting just find something to occupy yourself like write songs or poetry or something trust me it helps

Answer 4

I cut very regularly for four years, and only in the past year or so have i finally calmed way down to where i've cut like 3 times in eight months or so? for me it was just needing to decide that i truly wanted to quit. i said for years that i wanted to but there was still a big piece of me that wasn't ready to or couldn't. not to discourage you from trying in the mean time, but i think for most people you just hit a point where you just decide to truly want to.  

Answer 5

Maybe another outlet for your frustration will help.  I had a friend who began writing poetry of all things to help her with her cutting problem.  She said she would just start writing everything in her head and it helped.  

Answer 6

Not to worry baby. I had the same problem. Cept worse. I use a chain saw to cut both me legs off. Then I gots me life in order. Life is beautifly now.