I'm a Junior in high school (grade 11).
we first met eachother in 8th grade. I turned around and he was staring at me so I smiled. we sat next to each other practically the whole year. he was really quiet, but some friends would tell me how he cracked on people. he would always have my back like one time I walked in class and I guess I looked sad and he kept asking what was wrong or this other time this guy took my agenda and he was a lot bigger than me so I was just like "Corey. give me my agenda" and he comes up behind me and intimidates him and gets it for me (it's stuff like that you remember about people). he was messing around with this kid in our class but the kid didn't think it was funny (pushing him around) so I was like "leave him alone." he laughed and pushed me a little bit but it made me mad and I pushed him back and told him dont ever touch me. we didn't talk for the rest of the year. we sat right next to eachother but it was like he would ignore me. beginning of grade 9, he asked me out and explained that he was worried I didn't like him because of the whole incident. I said "sorry, but I can't go out with you." we didn't really talk to eachother over the next two years. part of it because we didn't have any classes together and the other part because I was depressed and wasn't doing much talking. I thought he hated me.
I'm in grade 11 now. the bell had just rang and I was leaving the restroom while he was walking by it. I don't think he recognized me much because I've been told I look a lot older and he was just looking like he was trying to think or something. we were in the hallway and I smiled big and I was like hi, I haven't seen you in forever. he kind of started the hug when I was walking near him and I hugged him back too tight (looking back) and a little too long. (DO YOU THINK HE THOUGHT ANYTHING OF THAT??) then we talked a bit and he brought up how he liked me in middle school but he was shy because of his accent (he's from Jamaica). I was just like I don't care how you talk. I told him it was nothing personal and I was depressed and that I didn't want a boyfriend. then he asked how my past 2 years were and I was just like "they were a mess" and he's like "why" and I'm like "drama." him-"at school" me-"not really. at home" (that was so stupid. why did I say that) I just really wanted to talk to him for a long time. I really want to be friends. he was friendly to me.
Do you think it was stupid for me to bring up my depression and drama at home?
Do you think he thought something of the hug?
Do you think we can be friends?
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