I have writers block. Every word in poetry, should stand for itself and have a meaning that takes part in expressing ones feelings.
I like to describe my feelings and express my emotions in the most deep and meaningful way, however I'm at a set back. I can describe my feelings but not express them and they burn deep. I know people who can express themselves so deeply and sometimes I wish I had more of that even if I had to trade in some of my scientific knowledge.
I am feeling anxious, ambitious, protective, proactive, feel the calling to help someone or something, hint of discouragement, homesick, heart struck and head strong, not aimless but lost, feel Immortal but in pain. I feel smart, strong but not as useful. I don't want to be needed, but I'd like to be wanted even if it is my home that wants me back. I feel lonley but not desperate. I know my roots but can't find how to embrase them. I cry with no emotion or to a mere movie, but in sadness I'm too strong to cry.
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