a lye. I make up fake myspaces and email myself acting like theyre hitting on me because I know he knows my password and will read them. I act like there are girls that claim he talks to call me, which they dont but he gets worried and starts telling me its not true so im comforted. I made up so many lies. I told him my dad is abusive, I told him I have cancer just to get attention and he doesnt know at all. I know he loves me but for one minute he's paying more attention to his friends I panick and start thinking he doesn't..
I don't know why. I need help. I love him, he loves me. But I can't stop lying. We're going to be married. I think that will leave me in relief.
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