I need help I've become crazy.?

Question

a little over 3 years ago I became involved in heavy LSD use, believing it to be a spiritual catalyst for enlightenment. I used it heavily about twice a week for two years straight. I soon became unable to even communicate with my peers. It was at this time I realized I was beginning to lose track of reality. My introversion began to grow. I quickly became depressed, but my LSD use did not stop, in fact it increased. The psychedelic experience justified my delusions and in that I felt comfort, it didn't judge me, it accepted me. One day I day I couldn't take it anymore, my delusions had made me reclusive, I had lost all of my friends and couldn't help but cry, every night. One night my mother found me crying and I had to explain the dilemma. I told her and she demanded me to go to rehabilitation center on the west coast. I was there for 5 months, but nothing changed. I am completely insane and have no concept of reality. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like i can't live in this world anymore. My mind is so warped and twisted by this chemical I don't know what to do anymore. I feel I have completely disassociated from my sense of self. I am suicidally depressed and I need help. I have tried so hard to ignore these delusions and hallucinations but i just can't. I haven't done LSD in exactly a year and 2 months, but the delusions don't stop. I am in psychosis. Nothing is real to me or has any meaning please help me. I cry every night wishing I could just die. please help. i don't know how much more I can take.

Answer 1

Read the book "You can heal your life" By louise l hay!

Answer 2

Firstly, if you are in psychosis then see a qualified psychologist in order to get medication for this illness.

Secondly, far from being unable to cope with reality - you write well, you remember events from the past, you are clear about what happened to you, you understand the causes, you went to a rehabilitation center and there are probably many more things beside this that you are able to do.

My suggestion is to see a psychologist to help you with the side-effects of having taken the drugs, see if there is a support group for people with similar problems, re-establish ties with your old friends and associates and socialise with more people - this is so that you have a reality check whenever you see something that may not be happening.  See if you can find out what the triggers are for these delusional events and discover what you will need to do in order to regain some semblance of normality in your life..

Answer 3

Recently my sister has been through rehab an alot of other things and i heave read diaries of hers that she has wriiten saying she has lost touch of reality and that she thinks she is going crazy,and  wants to comit suicide. But in reality, if you re going crazy you wouldnt know it. you wouldnt question your sanity. if you look at charles manson, who was indeed completely insane,  there are interviews of him speaking about how everyone thinks he is crazy but he knows that he is not and doesnt understad why people say that.

LSD does mess with your mind,and because you have not been using it, your body is still going through withdrawels. and due to the fact that you used it so heavily, it does stay in your sysstem and the trips can come back randomly.

you are not insane, but i suggest you go to a shrink.

Answer 4

Relax..u are NOT crazy!!!!  You are just feeling overwhelmed.  When u stop using drugs, your body reacts differently to it's surroundings.  You can feel angry. depressed, sad, alone, suicidal...all symptoms of "coming down".  You need to "re-train" your mind and body to react positively to ur surroundings.  This does take time, but in the end it's very worth it.  You may need professional help to begin the process of finding ways to change ur current thought process but if u dedicate yourself to getting better, you will.  Good luck and take care 'cuz I care!!!

Answer 5

WOW, i think your quiet brave for keep doing lsd,thats some weird stuff lol

and completely does mess with your brain and your thoughts.

you should go to your doctor and explain everything.

Answer 6

wow, i must say you are a very smart person for someone who has lost reality, how you write and express your self shows me that you arte still hear, i think you need someone just to listen to you someone who understands, i truely wish that the rehab had helped cos there isnt may option you can take, is there any other medication to help? i know this may not help but the drug has changed how u see the world and may be like this for you for the rest of your life. i wish i had some advice but u need to find someone else with sorta the same story, i hope you do so u dont feel so alone x