I need help im lost..im at the point where i shouldnt go on!!?

Question

i left the medical field in 2006 because it was very overwhelming..i lost my sister to cancer couple months later.. my fiance and I brokeup.. and i felt lost.. i gained so much weight..I dont go out anymore or drink because i felt ashamed. I lost majority of my friends including my best friend. Since 2006 I gained about 60 pds. now i weigh about 340 and Im just 29 I tried to go back to work but my legs and back stop me from working so evidently i gave up I havent been working and its 2008 i tried to go back to the medical field but i was ashamed on how i look what would my former coworker think of me..im so lost.. i dont have anything going for me.. i have bodyaches everyday i figure i dont have the purpose or the drive to stay alive.. i try to pray to god everyday.. but i stop having faith because he shouldnt let me get this way. im so afraid crazy things are running in my mind. i dont have self esteem drive willpower.. i dont even know how to get those things... sorry for expressing how i feel .. im just scared!!

Answer 1

It sounds like you may have just hit a little road block in your life. I'm sure you still have plenty of time to get back into the medical field, so why not take some time off and just do things you enjoy to get your life back in order?? If your really concerned about the weight issue though, you can always join a gym or hire a nutritionist. Weight's not the end of the world, its only another part of our appearance. If your still feeling down, talking to someone close to you about your problems couldn't hurt. Hope you feel better soon!!

Answer 2

I've felt lost in life.  I've lost many people in my life I've loved.  It hasn't been easy, and I didn't always feel God with me, but I knew He was there.  I've prayed a lot, and I'm not always happy, but I try to look at the positive things in my life.  Take it one day and a time.  Start out slow and make your way back to working.  Call up friends or family you haven't seen in a while and build your relationships.  If people judge you, then they don't love you and aren't the people you need to be with.  God hasn't left you!  He won't ever leave you, so don't give up faith!

Answer 3

sounds to me like you are in deep depression.I would recommend making an appointment to see a doctor about it,and getting on some anti-depressants.Also start watching what you eat,to help you drop a few pounds.Sounds like the weight issue is really bothering you,so a healthy diet would be a good place to start.

Go and see that doctor though...it sounds like you really need someone to talk things through with.You had a lot of big hits right and a row...it would be hard for anyone to deal with.

hope things work out for you hun,just remember that you matter and you deserve to be happy  :o)

Answer 4

You are going to be fine! I see what you do not. Just hear me out!

Imagine a garden filled with weeds that are choking flowers and stops them from growing. Now as those weeds grew we made efforts to pluck them,but they always grew back stronger. Slowly things got worse. I lost my girl and gained weight. I lost my friends. I eat to fill my emotional void. I feel that nobody cares and that I'm a waste of life. Right? Is that how you feel? Watch this!

#1 - You have been crushed emotionally for a while now,BUT so were diamonds when they were pieces of coal crushed by the heat and pressure of the earth!

#2 - This is an opportunity for you! What opportunity? This an opportunity to help others and this is your greatest strength! >>>

There are people out there that are going through tough times that you will help as you now get courageous ONE STEP AT A TIME!

#3 - Your mind is attracted to what is simple and what it easy. So what is simple and easy?  Bad realities are very easy to believe in right? Correct me if I'm wrong please!>>>>

So we need a simple answer agree? Something that your mind will accept,believe in,not attack and bring happiness and a plan for a great happy future!

#4 - Plant ONE flower in your brain! That one flower is the decision and emotion that YOU ARE working towards happiness!>>>>

You worked in hospitals. Did you know that when a woman gets pregnant the body thinks it's a foreign body and tries to kill the cell division of the sperm and the eggs? This is like how we get depressed even when we try to think positive. We still get depressed after we struggle for happiness.>>>>

Well when the fertilized cells survive the attack from the body it does so because another part of the body comes down and protects it from the attack of the immune system!>>>>>

So now I want you to protect that flower of desire to work towards happiness as a woman's body protects those dividing cells!>>>>

The immune system attacks fertilized cell division and the mind attacks positive thoughts! So you must grow THEE EMOTION THAT YOU ARE WORKING TOWARDS HAPPINESS!

BTW the phrase, " I'm working towards... fill in the blank" CAN'T be attack by the mind because it's a presence statement about an action you are taking in that present tense.

#5 - The fight is in the emotions not in the thoughts or by what has happened to you in the past although you need to express your unhappiness in order to change how you emotionally programed your mind.

I have to go now;but just as the body gets over the flu when you replicate the positive emotion, that you are working towards growing,through all of your disapointments you will start to take actions in every situation you are sad in and build a structure of positive emotion and the fact that you are so low right now will actually give you more emotional power as you get strong because you will be like wow I came a long way!

Write me any time!.  

Answer 5

you need a friend, my dear...

and after that, you need to take charge of your life. Obviously this message is a cry for help. If you can afford it, see a professional. You seem depressed. You also need help losing weight, so that you can regain your self-esteem.

find a job, any job. start eating healthy. and find someone to talk to as well. It's hard to be alone when you face so many things.

If you don't have anyone, write me back. I'll listen to you.

Be strong, you were put on earth for a reason, and that reason is NOT to kill yourself...

Answer 6

Who the h**l cares how your homo co-worker thinks of you?!

Go back in the medical field, apologise to your best friend, try to get back in touch with him/her, ad get your life together.

Answer 7

First, God didnt let you get this way without a purpose.  In Romans it says that everything works together for good to those who love the Lord.

I dont know why he let this happen, but when its time he will reveal it to you.  Just some ideas off the top of my head.  

Maybe he wants you to become obese to lose weight so you can be an inspiration to others.  You said you were in the Medical Field, maybe that can be your use.

Maybe he has done all this to bring you closer to Him.

I would recommend going to see a bariatic physician, and a psychiatrist.

Answer 8

I just prayed for you, and will again. Someone cares about you. Me. Hang in there man.

Answer 9

Now sometimes things like this seem to build up. It's seemingly like a snowball, just rolling and building and building, one bad thing piling onto the ball after another until eventually it's so big you seem to be crushed under it's weight. I've been here. I know it might seem dumb or foolish, but try getting some help. Asking a professional. Tackling one thing at a time makes things a lot easier. Instead of looking at all of this as one large horrible life you've gotten yourself into, focus on each individual issue. Maybe your Fiance and you weren't meant to be. It's a shame about your sister, but I'm sure you two loved each other very much and I'm sure she knew that. As for the weight issue, don't let it hold you back from things you want to do. Keep Strong. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Reach out when you need it, that's what it's there for.

Good Luck.