i am a 19 yr old single mum to a 7 week old boy and have matured and learnt so much so far! before i was a bit out of control and heading downhill until i fell pregnant. i accepted it almost straight away but it wasn't easy for me at all. i ended up losin my "night life" and my friends, and a relationship that was good (but he wasnt the father so things got hard and we parted ways)
i found a new respect for single mums and i didn't realise what hard work and how much patience goes in! i love this "job" though, yes it has got its "downs" that break me, though it has it's "ups" aswel that makes me forget everything going around.
when i fell pregnant i was advised (by my rents) that i should not tell the father that i was carrying his kid, and i ended up doing just that but i now really regret it. i don't regret it cos of the money etc (although its rly tough) cos i've got my family that really help me out whenever they can. i regret it cos it is like i ripped my son from his dad, and even though its better this way for us, i'm worried that my son will hate me when he grows up. his dad wasn't the type of man i would like near my son, he was involved with the wrong crowd and older then me (32), he would have just ignored him anywys (just like he does his other kids). i was worried that my son would be in danger if he was to have a fall out with the others he deals with.
so in the end i did it for my boy but how would i get him to understand that? i need to know how to break it to him when he starts asking me bout his father and why he never got to meet him. he's gna b askin from such a young age so i cant mention all the drugs n jail stuff. (although he probably would end up finding out being that i live in a small country)
if there's any1 who has some sort of advice or has been through something like this, please help. this is a really sensitive and touchy subject for me so please no rude answers.
feel free to contact me, i'd appreciate it so much!
thanks in advance xx
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