I really, really need help befor I have a breakdown!!! =[

Question

hello,

I was on the computer aaages ago and I looked at something...I can't bring myself to type it. Innapropriate. Anyway, I have been feeling such Extreme guilt i just don't know what to do. I told my mum dad, and they were understanding, but it hasn't helped me. I just can't forget it, I feel like I have ruined my childhood and my whole life ahead of me. Im putting a brave face on it all but im just dying inside and im not suicidal or anything like that , but I just feel like...I need a hug, and for someone to tell me it's going to be okay...I don't know what to do!! can anyone help me with this? I know I need to do something, but I just don't know how to help myself out of this extreme guilt...I just feel like I have let myself down and that im dirty and strange and that no one will ever like me again...And i just wish I could turn back the clocks and undo it, but i know I can't but im still having these thoughts and it makes me want to cry, but I can't...........='[

If anyone will email me or instant message me that would be realllly helpful too. x

Answer 1

Nothing to Worry about.  Many people look up things that maybe they should not have.  some people go back and look again. It's just part of curiosity.  

Answer 2

It is going to be just fine.. Just look ahead to your future and the good things that will come to you. Your mistakes can only make oyu stronger always remember that! I have the best of hope for the rest of your life, if I was there with you then I would give you the most meaningful hug! Be strong!!

Answer 3

Oh sweetie, your no different than anyone else other than you just have a huge concience. Let it go. We all did stuff like that when we were little. It's very normal. Now, just know that & get on with your life. You'll look back and laugh at this when your older.

Answer 4

Don't worry hun!

I'm sure whatever you did wasn't that bad. There's alot of terrible things you can do. Just forget it ever happened. Tell yourself whatever you did wasnt that bad, and even if it was bad its over now, there's nothing you can do to change the past. You told your parents, its over. Just forget it ever happened.

Answer 5

do the right thing and bottle it all up inside

Answer 6

aww dont be so hard on yourself!  

Answer 7

Its alright to cry. It might make you feel better.

If you saw something and your judgement told you it was wrong then you shouldn't feel any personal guilt. As long as your concsience lets you know its wrong. If you didn't have a concsience you would think nothing of it. Feeling guilty just means that your heart is sincere. You will see a lot of things that are really messed up in this world. When you start to accept those things as normal and a part of life and your innerself has no reactions, thats when you should feel guilt. Stay pure hearted and try not to dwell on the negative because it will only depress you.

Answer 8

Awww! To be honest you really shouldnt worry about it because there are people in the world that do much worse things. It's alright if you were just curious because everyone in the world is curious! It doesnt mean that your dirty or naughty or unpure it just means your curious. When you get older you'll understand that theres much more dirty things that people see and do thats much worse then what you did. =]  

Answer 9

i have probably done it too don't worry about it!

Answer 10

I have a skeleton in my closet from my teen years that makes me feel gross/guilty still to this day. I feel guilt and disgust about it. I can't go back and change it but I can't accept it either. In fact, I change the channel on the TV or run away from any situation that even remotely reminds me of it. I try so hard to forgive myself but Its just one of those things you can't believe you ever did its so creepy. I just try not to think about it.

One thing that does help is hearing that other people have things they feel that type of guilt about too. Reading your question made me feel a little bit better about what I did ...even though I don't know what you did ... but just knowing that other people make weird mistakes too. It was probably one of those things where you don't know who you were when you did that and it doesn't even make sense that you would do it. I just feel a little comforted knowing others out there have felt this way too. I hope you can take comfort in knowing I felt like I was reading my own diary entry when I read your question. No matter how weird or gross whatever it is you did was, I guarantee someone else out there has done it too and almost EVERYONE has done something bad that they regret. We are human, we are born sinners, and we sometimes do strange things. Thank you for posting this question. It helped me a little, I hope I helped you a little too. Good luck.

Answer 11

I have emailed you.

Answer 12

I have been there and felt the exact same way.  I also came to yahoo answers looking for encouragement.  I know that it hurts...sooo bad...but the only relief you will ever find is after you have asked God for forgiveness.  You seem to be a religious girl.  Remember what Jesus died for...our sins!  Ask God for forgiveness, and if you really regret it (you obviously do) He will see your heart and forgive you.

I know it is hard to feel so far from God...but remember Matthew 28:20.  God is "with you always, even to the end of the world"

Good luck.  You'll feel better, I promise.  If you need anything, PM me.  I'd be glad to help.  :)

Answer 13

You can tell me what is on your mind.I am sure i can help you.

Answer 14

Don't worry about that at all.  Even if I don't know what the issue was, I can guarantee you that every human being has at least a thing or two in their past they are ashamed of, or would have rather avoided.  It happens.  Blame it on circumstance, curiosity, over-smartness, naughtiness, or anything - it happens.  The true courage is to put it behind, try to learn from it, use the results in a positive way, and become a new you.  Whatever happened in the past is just that - past.  You can do nothing about it.  Remember, "today" is the first day of "rest of your life".  If it helps, get help from religion, friends, or professionals - but most of the time you should be able to manage it yourself./