I really really don't know why I feel like this...?

Question

but sometimes when I am babysitting children, I feel this strong urge to abuse them or molest them, I know it sounds really really messed up and I have never ever ever acted upon it and I am telling you the honest truth because I am a really nice person who has morals and a conscience and knows right from wrong but sometimes I feel like this...I have never been molested that I can remember and not really abused even though my mom has been controlling a lot in my life

Answer 1

Your screwed in the head. Other then that your fine.The cruelty thing I can see as it can be dominance and humans are animals. But yeah molesting maybe not. Im not sure if I believe you. But hey I give you two options:

Go for it! if your power levels are over nine thousand you will get away with it.

Seek a doctor.

your choice.

Answer 2

I would first quit babysitting!  The temptation may one day overcome you and you will end up doing something morally wrong and illegal.  As an administrator for a women's abuse site, I see the pain and horrors of women who were abused as children.  Your may have hidden abuses that have not surfaced yet.  You may be trying to have control over the children in order to deal with the abuse from your mother. Controlling is a form of abuse.  Please seek help before you do something that will ruin both a child's and your life!

Answer 3

It's probably anxiety related. Your actually scared of harming the children or of the children coming to harm under your care - when you are alone with them, anxiety rises, and consequently you begin to get unpleasant compulsive thoughts of harming them. You should avoid babysitting and if you are alone with kids ever, try to distract yourself and change your thought process. Otherwise you are conditioning yourself (making a habit) of always thinking these things when you are with kids. Really you should see a Dr.

Goodluck! Your not crazy.

Answer 4

This problem may have risen due to your controlling mother. You may now feel the urge to control and dominate over a smaller child. You probably would never act on these urges, but I think it would be best for you to stop babysitting children just so you don't experience these uncomfortable, uncontrollable feelings. Perhaps pet-sitting would suit you well.

Answer 5

Wow. I thought I was the only one. Sorry I cant answer the question just wanted to tell you your not lone :) When I'm babysitting my 15 month old cousin Cai I feel like that. Idk why tho because I love her to death. I just ignore it or stop thinking about it. But when I feel really bad I just hug her. She usually pushes me away tho lol. She has an attitude. The girl is 15 months and she is embarrassed when I hug or kiss her in public. :) haha and she is seriously afraid of cotton candy so sometimes I wave it in her face and she cries. Its funny because its just cotton candy lol. Anyways sorry I coulddnt answer it but your not alone!!

Answer 6

Avoid babysitting and go see a doctor.  

Answer 7

I think that you are depressed or hurting , and when you hold things in all it does is build up and cause your mind to wonder, and its not helping especially with your mom being controlling. '' And no you are not crazy and if you ever feel like you are going do something you regret ;  find someone that YOU TRUST and let them know how you feel, and you will feel alot better.

Answer 8

Ok.. I can't believe that guy just said go for it... DO NOT. Ok I was watching this thing about people who get molested and stuff and they're lives are messed up forever. They have problems trusting other people and they don't get along with others.

I don't know why you feel that way about children but don't do it. Mind over matter, the consequences are bad.