ok im back to school and i cant switch classes. I have my problems like every other human being on the planet so I do stuggle with sin. (please dont beat me over the head with the Bible, I mess up a lot like eveerybody else and I know to try harder.) I try my hardest to stay away from drugs, s*x, and all that stuff. But my mistakes have injured my faith in God. So you see, God has been caring for my wounds and helping my faith ----- but now I'm plumiting downward in a spiral. My Great Civ Adv. teacher is more less teaching on evalotion and he doesn't quite allow us to have a right to believe what we want. And he WILL NOT shut-up. All he says is so logical but I'm a Christtian-I don't want my faith to be stollen. (or what I have left). I hate having knowledge cause it only makes me spiritual dumb (sometimes). What do I do? I cant switch classes and he's trying to prove with scientific facts that the earth started with a bang----(which can actually be just as hard to believe as believing in God). What do I do? If I never got trapped in sin I would have more faith-but I love GOd a lot. And to be honest I am very afraid, because I actually have something like extreme panic attacks, (not joking), and if I continue thinking that I believe in nothing-it's gonna kill me. I want you guys to tell me something that has happened to you that cannot be explained. I REAALLLLLY need my faith to come alive again (especailly since I messed up again today). If God is real I don't think He cares about me anymore because I don't quite feel him like I used to. I am worried beyound belief. By the way more then anything-- what messed me up spiritually I went to church one day and basically they screamed at me harshely about blashempy. So they put me in such an extreme panic attack that I never wanted to talk to God again because I was terrified of doing it. Now I never want to go to church again. I also went to a Catholic school once ---- (im protestant) and they forced me to go to confession and yet again they constabtly talked aabout how if I messed up on certain things I could go to h**l. Sorry I wrote so Much But i need help and the reason why I would only like Christains to answer is cause If they convince me God is in my head it's going to only put me in a apnic attack that I cannot control.
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