I think I have borderline disorder... and tired of life. what should I do?

Question

Im 20 male, nursing student.

here's the deal, I easily get attached to people, but still feels abandoned, sometimes even if I'm okay right now, I still got some thoughts of suicide. It's in my everyday thoughts I just supress it, but I know it will happen soon

I don't understand why I feel this way, it's like only if there is someone who can love me and understand me will I only be complete.

when I'm around with my friends i feel insignificant and un-intouched... No one knows this at all, and I don't wanna tell my fam or my friends anyway. What should I do?

I wanna live but Im kinda tired anyway....

17 minutes ago - 3 days left to answer.

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about dogs, i have one her name is Schwerman... dogs are dogs, threapeutic, true.. they have short lifespan that's why I don't wanna invest my feelings much on them.

Answer 1

Sometimes the best way feel needed and appreciated is to help other people, even when you don't feel you have the energy or inclination. There are always people worse off than you and people you can help.

Sometimes we have to get out of the sterile world we live in to understand what a good life we have or had. I would recommend you volunteer to work oversees where people really need you, in countries where the trimmings of our sad over indulgent society is fed by adverts that always make us want to desire more. Countries where children only have one tee shirt and one pair of jeans. That puts life into perspective.

Why not look at VSO?

http://www.vso.org.uk/index.asp

Good luck!

Answer 2

BPD isn't the end of the world...start therapy and get on medication that works for you

Answer 3

You should talk to someone about this and not hide it away as you will feel better. Maybe not with your friends though, someone like your parents is probably the best. Also consider seeing a doctor and getting counselling. Think to yourself you are a good person and that you deserve to live and overcome the problem than to let it destroy you.

Answer 4

I don't think you should be asking this question on here. I think you should be asking the doctor.

I'm sorry that you feel this way and I hope you feel better soon.

But please, go and get help - life will get better. It's a massive rollercoaster, there are **** times and good times too. The good times will come, this i promise you!

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