I think I may have Bipolar disorder

Question

Ive been doing risky stuff in prague, woke up with blood, not mine on my bra and bed, went out late in prague by myself and got drunk, got in a fight with a friend who was trying to stop me from doing something really risky and dangerous and I got delusional and head butted him, I was going to go down a ******* shoot. I could have broken my legs, been paralysed, that is not like me and I hate myself for doing that and . My thoughts are racing ahead of me all the time, like a few weaks back, I thought I came pretty close to hitting Nivarna, I spoke to ....God.... or rather something that felt divine on thew way home. I have highs and lows, I feel like I can do anything, everything is either really fast or really slow. And I..ve kinda gone crazy by my standards on spending, im finding that impulse hard. I..ve noticed some manic phases since I was 14 when I was reall manic 1day in school and she asked ....áre you ok, your acting strange.... and I knew it. Like my mind is coming out with some crazy creative stuff, when for about a yr, my mind was painfully dead and now my thoughst and sometimes speech races so fast and my typing, Like I cant get the ideas and thoughts out fast enough.

I have had several episodes of severe depression since I was 13.Im from the UK but doing a yr in Prague so, seeing doctors and stuff is difficult. I am contemplating sending an email to my doctor I also scored pretty high on a bipolar and mania screening thing, I think I scored moderate-severe on it. But those are just online tools, it was the goldberg or goldenberg test or something. Anyway thanks

Answer 1

There is an offical and well research test that sounds like Goldberg, but even of official tests, online versions are to be doubted. This could be bipolar disorder. This could be mood swings and impulsivity. If you want an actual diagnosis, you have to see a therapist. Even fully qualified people on here would have to agree you can't give or get enough information via a forum for an accurate diagnosis. It does sound similar to bipolar disorder, but I have no way of accurately judging severity, you see.

So I would advise you, if you are worried, to see a therapist for a diagnosis. You don't have to continue therapy after diagnosis if you don't want, but if you want to know if you have bipolar disorder, that's the way to find out. If you don't have it, they'll tell you.

Answer 2

... in fact you need expert opinion,

better consult some professional for help.

Answer 3

research on line and read about the symptoms etc. (looks like you have a lot you have learned already) but without a true diagnosis you may be limited in getting the tools to control it as much as possible. a lot will be self teaching by reading etc.  

Answer 4

For more info about bipolar disorder see http://www.identifybipolardisorder.com