Every day I get online and look up health problems and things that could be wrong with me. My newest thing is HIV. I had an pimple on my arm and convinced myself that I had aids. The more I read the more I tried to relate to it. I even went as far to get me and my boyfriend tested (he's already been tested for all STDS and he thought it made no sense to get tested since we have only been with each other) ...Also cancer, I was convinced I had that because of my weird menstrual cycle. I read about these things every day while at work or at home and find new diseases. I go to the doctors but I'm just convinced they're not doing a good enough job at hearing my concerns and testing me for these things. Every symptom I have is another trip to the doctors, but then I become embarassed and cancel my appoitments when I explain this to my family and they tell me "I'm fine"
Recently I went to the docotors for my first pap smear, they asked me to do a repeat in six months and I'm scared to death I have some kind of terminal illness. Actually I'm convinced that I have several different diseases at once but the doctor isn't checking carefully enough no matter what I say. (same thing goes for dentistry/vision/and mental illenesses)
I'm tired of the doctor and hospital bills (luckily I have insurance) and I'm tired of thinking I'm going to die from untreated illness that I keep on making myself believe I have it's very, very depressing.
Should I see someone about this? Or is this normal or at least mild compared to others? IAnything will help, thanks...
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