well, i know to most of you, i am gonna sound like and insane, clingy, needy, sad, paranoid, anxiety ridden freak.. but thats ok; thats what this website is for, right? :) anyway, my man has been gone for 13 days, on vaca in italy with his kids.. he has called me every night between 6pm and 7pm to say goodnight to me (there is a 6 hour time difference, so it was 12-1am there).. we didnt talk much while he was out there, and that was ok.. i had no problems with it, i knew he was having fun and being good.. but, no matter what he always called to say goodnight.. yesterday was a big italian holiday. i talked to him in the early afternoon briefly, he said he missed me and cant wait to see me on sunday.. told me about his day and that they were all going to his aunts restaurant for dinner that night, then we said good bye, he said he'd call me before he went to bed.. he didnt call.. now, i'm not the least worried he was doing something wrong, or being unfaithful or anything. i figured he had a long night and with his kids and all, he was prolly exhausted and he fell asleep before he knew it.. so, i didnt freak out too much, though i worry, more for his saftey when he doesnt call, but i was ok..
this morning, we chatted via webcam, for about 10 minutes.. his family was all there, so he asked me how the business (his families business i have been watching for them) was doing and if there was any new mail, and how the dogs and birds were (all my responsibility the last 2 weeks) i said all was fine, but the pool turned green.. lol.. he said i looked hott, he liked my hair (i colored it)... i asked him if he got home late last night, and his exact response was, "no, we actually came home early, i was just way too tired..." and this is where i start to bite my tounge... he was too tired to make a 1 minute phone call, like it has been every night, to say goodnight? i dont get it.. but, i smiled and didnt say a word... i am not gonna do that on his last day there... i asked him what he was doing and if he had any plans for today and he said no, right now we're watching the olympics.... then he was ready to go... now, i am trying to look at the right side of this, as, its his last day with his entire family, brother, sister, aunts and uncles he hasnt seem in 4 years, and everyone is together... he is gonna see me tomorrow, and we'll get to be together now, all the time... at the same time, i was expecting at least, "im sorry i didnt call you last night.. i fell asleep.." or "i cant wait to see you.." or anything.. he cant even say i love you to me in front of his family... it makes me nuts.. and now, i sit here worrying why he was acting so strangly, and do i really have a reason to feel this way... or, am i just reading too much into something that really isnt all that big of a deal....
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