I think i have 'lost my memory'?

Question

i dont remeber any of my primary years or first year high school

which is year 7

im in yr 9 now and its killing me that i cant remeber a thing

i know i havent ever had friends and i have been severly teased and bullied, but i cant think of any examples

but these days, when someone calls me weird, i will burst into tears, and i dont get over it for about 2 hours

freak also does the trick, but as i said i dont now why its a big deal for me

i know they dont actually mean it..just are the two connected?

how can i remember?

Answer 1

You probably don't remember because your mind has "blocked it out" to safeguard your feelings and emotions. the period of your life that you don't remember was probably a period where you suffered a lot and was not a very happy time for you. this is probably the reason why when some people say key things to you you break down. it's bringing you back to a time of suffering. it is normal for your mind to repress feelings that were very hurtful in the past. by all means this is not justifying that you should leave them repressed. you should take a very slow path to retrieve this info from your mind. chances are if everything comes back oat once you may emotionally breakdown or be unstable... not like a crazy or anything!!

what you could do is rifle through old boxes with photos, schoool books, yearbooks, birthdays, home videos, school recitals etc. it doesn't matter if the objects of the past wee directly related to school as it does the period. you mind will take you back on it's own and you will start remembering. if you find it hard to cope while you are regaining your past try talking to a counsellor... you can contact me too if you wish. i went through the same thing when my brother died... i still can't remember everything from that period in my life. it shouldn't be so hard for you though since just the pronunciation of key words has an effect on you. if you have anymore questions or are unclear with anything send me an email ok!

take care