well if i get something in my head like i need to do ...... or i really want .... and i cant get it out of my head until i do it or have it. i have a habit of biting the inside of my mouth and when i bite my nails if it is the slightest uneven i keep biting until ive gone too far then i MUST do the rest of my hands. sometimes when i see someone or im talking to them ill randomly have thoughts of kissing that person or hurting them.
i have worst case scenario thoughts like if im in a car i often have thoughts of us crashing and me dying. or if i think i left my straightners on ill worry thinking my house might be on fire. i have alot of random thoughs, i think their called intrusive thoughts. i have certain ways of doing things like how i eat certain things. i have to hve my things in a certain order and get annoyed when peopel re-arrange my room or things. if we have guests cz im the yougnest i have to sleep downstairs and that person has my bed im weierd about this because i dont like the thought of someone elses sweaty body being in my bed. then i cant be around people who are ill cz i worry about catching it and i have a thing about germs. my room is a state but anywhere else is something is dirttyy it bugs me so much. i have kinda anxietys and when i obsess over something i will probably sit there for a good couple of hours checking it over and over, like emails.
i have a massive phobia which makes me uneasy, i get paranoid alot aswell.
i have adhd and a really **** memory so if i cant remember if i done something or not i just worry loads.
im jmust really weird and different compared to others, i cant fuction properly with people anyway then theres all the stuff in my head and anger issues and peopel think im a emo/freak/psycho because of what goes on in my head, and i dont wanna have to put up with this bs anymore.
is this ocd? or something else? im 16yrs old
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