man i think im MAJORLY depressed..like okay me and my boyfriend are in a REALLY hard spot right now because he's parents wont let us date until he grads (he's a senior high school).and then we are still secretly together and then we just fight so much because i found out he's been talking to other girls on myspace(ruins LIFES). and i just feel like im worthless and unloved.i feel like i dont want to live anymore.and he tells me i got to change.that i gotta stop fighting with him..but like i dont know why but i havent eaten in three or four days?i mean im hungry but i dont want to eat.and my grandma has noticed.and since i live in hawaii i just go to the beach and stay there all day.and i cry so easily.like i dont care about anything.and then last night my boyfriend tells me that we got to hold because he's stressed about school and graduation.but in general.i wont eat,i wont talk much,i cry ALL the time and so easily,i listen to sad songs all day,i try to hide from everyone and when i do see people i just smile like NOTHING is wrong even though everything is..and most of all i want to die.i dont want to live like THIS.why does love hurt!?the other night i wanted to down all the pills in my house..and never see anyone again.:'[ what am i suppose to do...?
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