I think that i had a role model younger than me...?

Question

i am a 17 year old male and i had just passed my school....

i think that i had unwillingly set a 15 year old boy as my role model......

I think he is the most ideal person on this Earth,he could do nothing wrong,he is genius and has no flaws...

I think too much about him and feel depressed when i compare myself with him..its not jealousy i know as i never think of harming him but i want to be like him but i cannot change my past...

a person wants to follow footsteps of his role model but my role model is 2 years younger than me and i often feel depressed when i compare my achievements with his..

i had not met him for 1 year but still i can't forget him..

2 days back i saw his pic in news paper for his splendid performance in exams(local city newspaper) and i feel even more depressed as mine has not appeared..

help how to overcome this..my life sems to become h**l

Answer 1

You are what you make your self but what ever you can be you can never be him. If you are not more intelligent than him then you never will be. Intelligent people do stupid things just like everyone else. Find something you can excel in. I know it is hard to feel like the lesser man but there is probably something you are better at than him. Try to control resentment you may feel for him because he probably cannot help but do well. I doubt he means any offense by it and would probably be hurt by the idea of being resented for doing well.

Answer 2

You need to work on self-acceptance. Age isn't necessarily the determining factor in achieving something great. You need to comfortable that you're doing your best. Seek to emulate others based on their characters, not on how well they do in exams etc.