I truly hate my life....

Question

It is mostly because of my dad, he ruined my life. He always yells at me and my mom, and now wants to give my dog away because he "doesn't like it." When I was around 8-9 he used to come home drunk (he was cheating on my mother with a much younger woman) and beat me up, wake up my mom in the middle of the night and start fighting.

Last year we moved from Europe to Canada and I thought "alright things are gonna be fine by now" but he started again. And I hate him, I hate him so much. I feel unappreciated and wortless and I can't even type because my eyes are full of tears.It's not like my parents can get a divorce, because if they did my mom and I would have to go back to Europe and we cannot afford to do that mostly because of my school.

I just want to die.. I don't want to see my family ever again, I am completely lonely and I have no idea what to do.

I am now 16 and I'm starrting to realize I have a lot of emotional and trust issues, I never express my feelings and feel like a total failure. Where did I go wrong? Where??

Answer 1

dear friend.. please dont think of taking any drastic steps. just think of your mom, she underwent all these suffering becz u were here source of happines. please do give her more pain, if u die, definatly she too will commit suicide. dont ever dare to do that.

now as u r  16 years old and in 2 years time u can become independent and can live a life of self with your mom, u can support her and she too can take up small time jobs and u r family will definatly be happy without u r father.

please keep in touch with your friends., but never cry front of them bcz some friends may take advantage of your weakness.

mail me, i will be there to support you, even tho i live thousands of miles away. i am there becz i am your FRIEND

Answer 2

Eleanor Roosevelt once said "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.". It is true, although you are in a seemingly terrible situation, you always have your last human right that nobody can take away from you. You have the right to choose how to feel. You may not be able to avoid physical pain, you may not be able to avoid a financial hit, but you can choose how things effect you emotionally. It is not what happens to you in life, but how you react to it. People with ideal situations sometimes act like victims, and people with far worse situations can stay positive and love life. Don't let him take your last human right, you have a choice here.  

Answer 3

omg.u should go somewhere with your mom.nobody should have to go through that

Answer 4

Your not a failure. Keep your chin up .

Answer 5

This sounds awful and i wish i could tell you what to do but i dont know,

theres plenty of helplines you could ring to get better advise then some of the jackasses on herre though

xx

Answer 6

Purple,,first of all YOU never went wrong at all. That's the first thing you must always remember..You and your Mother are VICTIMs in your predicament..Secondly,,your father needs help..He is never going to seek it or get it,,but HE is the problem..I don't know how physical he gets with you or your  Mom but,,if it is a physical that leaves marks or open wounds,,you need to tell your mom that you and her need to exit the home,and get police help.. If its not that way,,then bide your time,and stay away and out of his presence as much as you can..There's nothing wrong with you,,and don't think everyone is the same as your father..And too,,its good in a way that you aren't too trusting,,because,,your future is ahead of you ,and you will have to judge new peoples motives for yourself..I would say to you,,shortly,your situation will be changing for the better as you complete your schooling.. And when that time comes,,I would suggest you strike out on your own.. But do not forsake your mother,,and forget her,,for she may need you..Maybe down the road you will be able to help her.. I do wish you the best,,however your in a sad situation..                   SOLOMON

Answer 7

Hey.. don't act like your gonna commit suicide. I know you hear this everywhere but talk to someone. Tell them your problems and they'll help you out. You may not believe me but theres people in this world who actually love you and want you.. unlike your father.  If you abuses you, even in a sexual way, call the police. theyll take your father away.

But dont give up just yet. Life is beautiful and your part of the beauty

Answer 8

Dude! You shouldn't let ANYONE beat you up so u can keep a roof over your head!

The next time he hits you and leaves a mark, take a picture of it and you and your mum can go to a lawyer(or the police), show the picture as proof of violence and then your parents can get divorced, but you and your mum will have loads of his money 'cos you'll be suing him basically for child abuse... Just do it!!!!!!!

Answer 9

Call CPS or 1-800-4ACHILD  They will help you. You only have 2 more years to live with him.

Why would you have to go back to Europe if your mom got a divorce? Are you US citizens? There are agencies that can help your mom.  

Answer 10

please try to love yourself. hatred is not good and love only conquers. pray god to show you and your mom the way of changing your father and treat him with love. it will definitely responds. please pray and i too will pray for you and for your welfare. this is life and we will have to face the troubles as blessings so that you will confidently solve your issues. try to love yourself so that you can love others. my master says "love all whom he loves'" and also love him who loves all"  god is love and try to develop love and compassion towards others.  

Answer 11

Stop! It is not your fault! My father was the same way. I`m 49 years old now. It took me a long time to realize that some people are just heartless and because they are unhappy,they want everybody around them to be unhappy. Hang in there.You are 16 and almost able to move out and have your own life to live. Learn from this what you do not want your life to be like. Your parents made their choice and soon you will be able to make your own choice too. My parents got a divorce when I was in the 5th grade.I never saw my father after that until I was in my 30`s. He is still an a*****e and I left him this time. I`m learned a lot about how I wanted my life NOT to go.I turned out to be a good person because I refuse to be like him. Now I am very happy and like my life.I wanted to end it when I was young and I am glad I didn`t because I would have missed out on so much happiness I never knew exsisted. So please,don`t give up on yourself. There is a whole world out here for you to enjoy and live the way YOU want to live.It isn`t your fault things are the way they are now.You aren`t old enough to change things, YET. But in a couple years you will be and you will see that relationships can be wonderful to be in. Theirs just sucks and you happen to have to be in the middle of it.You`ll be ok.Just don`t give up or give in to his heartless ways.What you are learning will make you a better person in the long run and you will be happier because you will know what you don`t want in a relationship.