I want to die now, i feel horrible....?

Question

i ran out of money and cant by cigs anymore. i get money on tuesday but i have no cigarettes right now. ive been without one for 13 hours and its ripping me apart.

I have bipolar disorder type 1 and I was in a very euphoric manic episode for the past few months. All the energy is gone now, i can't keep myself from falling back into bed. All the hate and anger i had during the mania just faded, and im getting really tired...

has the lack of cigs thrown me into a depressive episode? i feel horrible, one sign of depression for me if when i am manic my slight suicidal thought involve complex situations that seem "cool".

but right now i just feel like overdosing and calling it quits...

i cant wait till tuesday for cigs, bipolar disorder plus trying to go cold turkey = very bad idea. This is unexpected, I didn't want to quit, but i guess ill take this as a chance to quit, but i need some form of help, or im going to go crazy, help me.....i need like a solution tonight, because im gonna just flip....

Answer 1

Suicide isnt the way out. Reason 1. Its like the sadest thign you can ever do to your self.

2. You will go to h**l.

3. I dont think theres anything reading words can help you about here. But therapist help man and their fun go there.

Answer 2

You could go to the store that sells cigarettes and hope and nice smoker feels compassion for you and buys you a pack. If you say, clean his windshields. Bring some paper towels and windex with you. Or you could sit helplessly by and suffer without one or even making an honest effort to get one. If worse comes to worse just trade the bottle of windex and paper towels for smokes, or bring something of value from your home to give them in return. Make sure to show the clerk your ID and explain you are of legal age so they don't call the cops.

Answer 3

Hey:Brother.

killing yourself is not the answer.

I'm sure you have people in your life that love

& care about you. There will also be people

later in life that you don't even know now that will

love you. I can assure you that if you can just try

to find the inner strength to hold on, you will get

through this and life will get better.

Also if you can't quit smoking at this time, that's ok.

But try at some future time because your health will

be better if you quit smoking for good.

Try to get lots of rest and avoid things that stress

you out.  

I'm sure you're a good soul and killing yourself would

not only be a loss for you, but a loss for the people

in your life.

Take care.

Answer 4

I am on my 7th day of quitting smoking.  I smoked for 15 years.  The first 3 days is really really hard.  After that it gets easier.  After that the urges become longer and longer apart.  I notice mine are about 2 to 3 hours apart right now and when they do come, they only last 5 to 10 mintues top.  But every day the urges space further and further apart.  At this rate I figure 2 to 3 weeks i won't have any at all.

Try to do something.  Even 15 minutes of exercise will release some endorphins and make you feel better.  The key is keeping active and keeping your mind off the cigarrettes.  boredom is the worse solution.

Answer 5

If I was nearby, I would totally give you cigs, even tho I came here and saw your post because I am s------l too. It comes down to this: people suck. Yes, they suck ***, and don't give a d**n beyond what they, their genitals, and their bank accounts have planned for the next few minutes, weeks, or years. I don't trust anyone, officially. People are continually incompitent and arrogant at the same time. I would be happy to watch 30% of the population burn alive, and I have NEVER been that kind of person. I would now rather hand over anything of value to someone who, like me, worked for a******s for years, and squandered their intelligence, good looks, and creativity on morons who lied and ****** their way to the top.

Answer 6

I went through the same situation, when depressed, and now regard it as a blessing in disguise. What concerns me is that you have bipolar disorder, yet are not receiving effective treatment. See bipolar disorder, in section 10, at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris  View page O first. Suicidal thoughts are addressed in section 5: contact one of the hotlines, when needed.  

Answer 7

Try and sleep as soon as possible...o.k.

Just try that for now, and if you believe in God pray for Jesus to bring you some peace.It does work!!

Answer 8

your body is trying to rid itself of the nicotine addiction. that's all. maybe you could think about it differently. Don't think about how deprived you are, because you are not. Think about how lucky you are to be freeing yourself from this horrid addiction to cigarettes that has controlled you for so long. Anyway, it's not much different than feeling a little hungry. Deep breathe for about a minute and the craving will go away for awhile. If you can make it until tuesday, and you can, then why even bother to buy more cigarettes? You will have made it through the worse by then! Don't even consider suicide. Oh, no. Don't do that! Realize that you are freeing your body of a horrible monster: nicotine addiction. Just decide you are without cigarettes because you choose to be. Just change the way you think! You can do it.