I've been suffering from depression and mild anorexia for about a year, I'm starting to recover from it and now feel that I'm ready to try and get a job and maybe get some more qualifications. I was in school as I fell ill and had to leave because I was 16 and they couldn't do anything to help me. I wanted to be an advocate before I became ill, but now I have literally no ambitions and not sure what I'd be good at or am interested in. Everytime I try to look for or apply for a job I put myself down so much into thinking I won't get it that I don't even bother. I normally make excuses, because I have blue hair and obviously, that isn't considered "normal". I'm so scared of going to college and meeting new people that I just can't face up to actually doing it. I find it difficult to speak to people so I'm scared of asking for help, I guess I was so independent before that I want to be like that now too. But on the other hand I just want to get some money and learn more so I can get a decent job with decent money in the future. What do I do? I'm so stuck and confused. But I know I can't just stay like this forever.
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