I was molested as a child an lost my virginity to rape i need a site to talk to someone?

Question

i have been having flash backs of when i was a child, some things that had happen but now its like one day it all came back , when i was 2 my father was put in prison for molesting me, which i come to live w/ he has no part in my life...But from the age of as long as i can remember my brother made me do things,, (very bad things) til i was 8yrs , my sister was bi polar also she abused me beat me , she once or twice did things to me also.. when i was little i didn't know it was wrong but i still knew not to tell or i would be beat.. But one day it stop never again did my brother touch me, but did i block it out we went on w/ life as nothing happened never talk of it , an no one knows i think he thinks i dnt remember. Then when i was 17yrs i lost my virginity by rape ... afew years later it happened again by the same boy ...while i was dealing w/ this my mother constantly called me a w***e an thought i was sleeping with everyone , when i was just raped!!! i am 21 yrs now ive only been w/ 3 ppl i am not a w***e i am about to be married all these things i thought i have gotten over , right now i am living w/ my brother while my fiance is in tech school for the Air force maybe staying her it triggered some memories idk i just need to talk to someone who understands i feel so dirty , ashamed , disgusting .. i don't want to feel this way any longer..

Answer 1

I am ow so very sorry for you, and really think you should confront

your brother and dont stay with you

call your mom and tell her what really happen

and if you havent told your husband then tell him

do something don't just let people control you  

Answer 2

*hug, i am sorry this happened to you.  no one should have to go through with this.  i agree with the others, you need to go live somewhere else.  do you have any girl friends maybe?  and you should tell your fiance.  he should be very loving and understanding about all of this.  you are not gross or disgusting.  i know you feel that way, but you aren't.  if you go to a local church, there should be a guidance counselor there.  or perhaps there is a good one in your area.  i know that there are many counseling centers on the internet too.  i know this isn't much help, but i do hope you find someone who you can really talk to about this.  best wishes to you and peace.  *hug

Answer 3

www.teloscenter.com - best money you will ever spend on yourself.  

Answer 4

Well, is there anywhere else you can live? I mean, if your brother molested you as a child, maybe it's not just a great idea to stay with him, don't you think?

Oh, and, besides, there's nothing for you to be ashamed of, you've done nothing wrong. They're the ones with the problem, not you. There is NOTHING that a person can do which justifies raping or molesting him/her. It's not your fault.

Answer 5

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