I wish I was dead every day.?

Question

But I have an 8 year old son I have to stick around for...I love him sooooo much, but my house is awful, my money situation is a nightmare, and I am a single parent with a horrible boyfriend, who speaks to me like Im dirt...To top it all off, i dont have a job, and I turned 37 yesterday.... HELP!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate my life! My son is the only ray of light, but sometimes I feel its all too much!!!!!!!!

(I was abused as a child aswell...)

Answer 1

okay first off, get rid of that a*****e! he's holding you and your sons life back and he is the only thing right now that is casting a shadow over your life. if you can get rid of him, and perhaps bunk with some mates or family for  a while until you find a sustainable job, then yeah, you can really turn your life around. seriously, your not a waste, you're obviously smart enough if you can get a degree so you do have potential. just chin up and dont look back. get rid of the boyfriend, get out of there, stay away for a while until you have a steady income

good luck

Answer 2

You need to get down to your Doctors.

Answer 3

1. leave the boyfriend

2. get a restraining order against him if he is abusive.

3.call hot line services, and see if there is any free counseling,and services,  single and abused women.

4.if you are on welfare you can talk to your case worker  maybe they can hook you  up with some  practical schooling, to find a new job.what is your degree in? if its philosophy, or some other obscure aria doesn't do you much good.

Answer 4

to one person you mean the world to them, your son...  your amazing to stick through for him,

theres a class you can search online healing of the wounded child and it really helps my best friend attended, you need to ditch the guy, theres safety you can find else wear in shelters for single moms. try finding a job that has a childcare center in t he company I'm sure theres many. l isten to encouragin words and songs, like Bobby McFerrin - Don't Worry, Be Happy  

Answer 5

Please don't do anything silly it's a test your going through & you must be strong & be selfless due to your son that would be traumatised if he lost his Mother!. Think about doing things that make yourself & son happy & if that means ditching a person that puts you down! then so be it. See you GP & talk to him about how your feeling there's no stigma about anti-depressants if you need help then you should receive it, he may ever refer you to a psychologist! which may be good for you to talk. Good luck with everything but I do think things will improve with you, you must ride this out.

Answer 6

Right. Wake up time! Ditch the dude...he isn't doing you any favours, and your son will be learning to copy an idiot. Look at what you have: what are your assets? Your son will be at school...do they need help, dinner ladies, teaching assistants? Can you child mind? Work shelf filling in the local supermarket? What about getting nearer family members, geographically and mentally...cultivate friendships...ask your son's friends over, get to know their mums...most of all: BE POSITIVE!!! You are staying alive for your son...now make him happy and proud of you!

Answer 7

first off, ditch the loser. you will feel better if you arent treated like dirt.

second, get out there and get involved in summat. Join a club.  

Answer 8

Firstly, don't do anything that's not un-do-able.  Secondly, think back to times when you were at school and every bad situation seemed like it was the end of the world, and it wasn't.

You'll get through the rain and into the sunshine, but you're going to have to make some tough decisions to make the changes you want.

Answer 9

dump the boyfriend, live your life for your son try to find a new place to live away from your negative situation. pray and find a good church to attend you may meet nicer people there.

Answer 10

There are many people a lot worse off than you.Think of the the kids in Africa . It makes me feel better.

Answer 11

find a new boyfriend, that will treat u better and that will appreciate you?

also get a job that will suit you, pursue your highschool dream or get a hobby, and be there for your kid when he needs you.

Answer 12

Stick W/ Ur Son

Dump Your Boyfriend n if u have family i think you should give them a call or somebodii close

Start Lookin For a Job

Answer 13

Big hugs! I am so sorry you are having such a horrible time, I can assure you it WILL get better. Get rid of the k**b that you are dating (easy to say I know) and gently try to make things a bit better. I only wish i had a magic wand to dissolve all your problems, but I have not. All I can say is that you are not alone, you are wanted, keep hold of the love for your son and let him grow straight and tall. Love from Cybercommie. x*x

Answer 14

I think you should do some serious thinking.  If the only reason why you're still alive is your son - then he should be the main focus of your strength.  

I suggest the ff:

1)start the elimination process.  how?  ditch the useless

2)de-clutter your life - ask yourself this:  what are the things in my life that I can/cannot  control? sort the can control from the cannot control.  accept that the things you cannot control ---because those are given things, so there's no point wasting your time on those.  instead focus on the things you can control, like finding a job.  may not always be easy, but once you stay focused and determined, nothing is impossible  

3)find a support mechanism (family, friends or group) - you need them.

and may i say that  having spiritual guidance (not necessarily religious) gives a certain hope for most people in dire situation like yours.

never lose that hope.

Answer 15

first of all, everything can be fixed just have to get out there an apply yourself as the women you are ... also why keep a guy around who talks to you like your dirt, try to discuss the problem and if you have and you have yet to see change i say leave him in the dirt where he crawled out of ;) haha...

and for the money problem look for coupons go to stores that have deals and tell your son your money situation so that he understand he cant have the new fancy XBOX 360 (or w.e) and since he is a wonderful kid im sure he will understand completly.

when you go to a job interview dress to impress :)

be super confident and show all your experties in that field...

what do you have to loose?

and seriously everything your experiencing is a steping stone to what will come in the future :)

goodluck

Answer 16

Firstly, *Hugs* to you. Sounds like youre having a tough time for sure.

Life is getting harder for most people believe it or not (financially, emotionally, stress is building etc), but please stick with it.

I turned 30 last week and thought I'd have life all figured it out but now, but most certainly haven't. Ohhh no way!

LOL.

Life seems to be a puzzle - some days it's a little annoying if you can't figure it out and other days, you feel like grabbing all the pieces and chucking them out the window!

I suffer from depression / anxiety also but know that even on some really bad / dark days, the sun always shines the next day and the days will keep coming. You have to try and find a little piece of beauty in each day - your son's smiling face would be a wonderful thing to focus on to start with  :-)

Ask him to draw or paint you a nice "happy" picture and see what he comes up with - then stick it on your wall beside your bed where you'll see it when you wake up. I'm sure that'll give you a reason to wake up happy :-)

You just have to keep going. Noone has all the answers unfortunately.

Your son most definately needs his Mum around, but if I were you, I'd ditch the boyfriend - you CAN get by on your own.

Even as a single Mother, there are some lovely men out there who would love to be with you I'm sure, but for the moment, you need to focus on remembering that you are NEVER alone - and if you ever need help, ask someone.

I've learnt not all people are bad and most are willing to offer some kind of help if you truly need it, but you also need to figure out how to help yourself and your son.

Maybe try to find online or at your local human service department a place where you can talk to a counsellor cheaply or even for no fee. Don't be ashamed to ask for help, please remember that and don't worry about what anyone thinks of you.....this sounds difficult and it can be sometimes but just keep focusing on how much your little man needs you and keep pushing yourself. There is light at the end of the tunnel.

Be Confident, Be Brave, Be Strong and Keep Going - your life matters

All The Best

:-)