I was approximately around the age of 12 when my doctor first gave me some samples of a medication for depression. He said at the time that 'Had to be the problem". All I remember is that I took about 3 different types over a years period and not one of them helped.
My "issues": I felt depressed and saddened most of the time. I felt separated from others around me - like in class, etc., and it was hard for me to pay attention - even when I was interested in the topic at hand.
I have learned to deal and handle most of the issues on my own, by reading and educating myself I have overcome many obstacles. I would say I went from deep depression and severe bi-polar to light depression (I only feel "sad" on average 3-4 x's a year - more normal things) and light bi-polar.
I am even majoring in psychology which has helped a great deal in my understanding myself, as well as others.
I have heard things about Adderall - how it helps you concentrate, helps you stay focused, and for some acts as a little bit of an depressant and anti-anxiety as well.
I have always wanted to try it and see if it helps me at all.
A freind at work offered me a few - I have enough to take 1 to 2 for about 6 days.
I have been taking them for a couple days already - when I feel aggrevated, disconnected (unable to consentrate), or anxious. It honestly has really been helping!
I am usually against taking medication from others, but I figured worse to happen is I would be where I am at right now with this.
My concentration level is through the roof. I don't want to "give up" on a project soon after I start it - sometimes I felt this way if the project seemd as if it would take awhile. I complete tasks, and since my concetration level is up I finish quicker. I can handle multiple tasks easer and more clearly in my head. I don't get anxious or nervous in situations where I normally do, due to those reasons and others I am just ore pleasing to be around and overall more happy.
Yes, believe me I know a few days of taking something is not enough time to fully get the feel of something like this. But it has made such an improvement, I have made such an overall improvement I can't help but wonder if this is what I need.
It is not that I deffinately need some type of drug - that I am the bad off, but I have wondered for many years, with all that I ave been through and overcome, if their was something out their that would ever give me that little extra "life" (for lack of thinking of anything better to describe) that I somehow long for - and for these last few days I have felt that.
So...finally here comes my main question.
I presently do not have a main doctor. This is something that now that I am on insurance through my work will be getting soon. Once I have gotten a doctor, is it okay to inform her about this? Is it okay to ask to be put on it, even if I have to do some type of testing?
Well, what do you think? Do you have the same results from Adderall as I do? What do you think my doctor will say?
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