If you could change something about your past what would it be?

Question

last night this woman came to my house to talk to me cause i felt depressed so she came over and she asked me if i had a deep dark secret and i said yes but i never thought that it was my deep dark secret and she asked me what it was and i said there is one thing that i would change about my past cause i am NOT proud of doing it at all so much that im the only one that knows about it no one else its kinda like my deep dark secret and she told me that because ive been holding it in for so long that whats getting me so depress and that why everything that has been happening to me has

but anyways my question is if you can go back and change something about your past what would it be?

was it really bad or just something you didnt like?

is it something that only you know about?

im just asking cause i kinda feel like im the only one that has a deep dark secret

Answer 1

Well, one big mistake I can think of is getting into an argument with some thugs online who decided they'd try to find me and beat me up (and probably worse). They found me one day and tried to beat me up but luckily I got away because there were people around at the time.

Since then, I've been too scared to go anywhere incase they found me again. It's been about half a year or something by now since it happened and I've only been into town once in that time and that was only because my friends literally forced me to go with them.

I hate myself for ever getting into that argument because of how it's effected my life, I haven't seen some of my friends in a very long time because I've been to scared to go anywhere to meet them. I feel pathetic. *sighs* I don't really know what to do about it except stay inside at home and hope I never see them again. It's ruined my life to be honest.

Answer 2

I have some deep, dark secrets but the thing I would change is not one of those things.

The thing I would change is the fact that I started smoking dope when I was about 12 and was stoned until I was 20...all through my GCSE's and A Levels....I have suffered from depression ever since and I'm pretty sure it's down to taking drugs while nervous system/brain etc still growing and forming.

And I wish, oh so badly, that I had asked my sister not to smoke either because she then became severely mentally ill, so much so that she committed suicide a few years ago (after moving on to other, stronger drugs).

I honestly think that, had the pair of us stayed away from drugs in those early years we weould have been ok....I say this because I have noticed that all my friends (we all smoked from that age) have been very depressed in adulthood whereas people who didn't start until they were adults seem to be ok with it.

When you're a teen you think it's all such a lot of fun but the cold, hard truth sink in when you get near 30.

So sad, what a waste of our potential :o(

P.S. I'm not asking you what your secret is, all I'm saying to you is that you should pick up the 'phone and tell someone, call the Samaritans, you would not believe how much better you'll feel after telling just one person, it's like you've been gasping for air and suddenly you can breathe again.

Please take my advice- I'm 33 and I have lived through so much **** and had lots of counselling, I know what I'm talking about.

EDIT: "ETERNAL DESPAIR", your situation sounds really awful.  I'm not religious therefore I don't pray but I'll think good thoughts for you and send them your way...you never know!

Answer 3

nothing........nothing at all........i hate life sometimes.......but i learned lessons i shouldve never learned from it.........even tho i wasnt the one ever messing up.........my life is horrible because of other ppl i mean personal like family but i love them i would and could never change anything (im 12 btw)

Answer 4

I would not wait so long to become a Christian

Answer 5

if u make mistakes u learn by them as u will not do the same again we all have bad bits in our lifes no one is perfect life would be plain and boaring if we were  

Answer 6

Being born, because life is ****.

Answer 7

I would go back in time and go to the intersection of Hwy 60 and Kyler street at 12:00AM on Wedneday July 23d and stop my best friend from crossing that street. I secretly blame myself for not being there and maybe keeping him alive...at least for one more day...

Answer 8

My name. I hate it.

Parents never think about if the baby would like the name, well... most parents don't.

Answer 9

Id go back, and not have stolen my parents car, Not have put my fist through that window pane, Never have taken any of the more serious drugs which i took, Would have gotton my head together and finished college, Would have not become so dependant on alcohol, I Could go on.....