Ive smoked pot off and on for the last 5 years. Its been about a month since I smoked last. Ive done horrible in the last 3 semesters in college and my gpa is horrible. Im not even going to school right now. I had to move back to my parents house because I was dealing with depression. Ive been molested many times, and Ive gone down on 4 guys, all of which I didnt want to. One of them was an old man that I barely met and I didnt find remotely attractive. So ive been going to therapy and got on depression meds, but I still feel absolutely hopeless. I feel like Ive lost my dignity. The only thing I got going for me is that im still a virgin, Im pretty, and nice. But seriously I hate everything else about myself. I dont even want to stop smoking pot. Im such a loser, I have no friends whatsoever, never have. I dont even know what to do anymore. Im so lost. Im moving across the country in two weeks to live with my uncle and work for him, I dont even want to (I barely know my relatives), Im just doing it because my life is going no where and Im a disgrace to my immediate family. What do I do? Any comforting words would be nice because I feel like the scum of the earth.
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