Im always thinking about suicide?!?

Question

lately thats all i have on my mind. i dont have that much friends in school so i think about that, and a way to get out of feild hockey. even when there is nothing on tv. mostly i think about it at night, before i go to bed. and when i do its like im not myself. like i feel different.

and i wont talk to my parents because they would put me in conseling and conselors make me uncomfortable. i even think of ways to do it... pleez help me!

Answer 1

its okay to think about suicide.once you do think of the people who would miss you or the things you would miss.i use to have suicidal thoughts,too and thats what i did.  

Answer 2

this is so common, so don't worry too much about it yet. It could be a phase, hopefully. It's amazing how many adults you can talk to that will tell you that they have gone through the same thing but got through it. in the mean time, find things you like about yourself, what kind of things you have to offer. not everyone has friends, sometimes you don't even need that many. find a hobby in the mean time, and if field hockey is stressing you out more than doing good, i advise you to drop it if you feel that will make you feel better

Answer 3

Many people think that going to a therapist is uncomfortable and shows weakness, but it really shows strength, and I'm willing to bet you will feel much better if you go. Please tell your parents before it is too late. The sad thing is, most suicidal cases CAN be treated.  

Answer 4

I have the exact same problem. You might want to really consider talking to someone before you get to the point where your not only just thinking about it but planning it and acting on it. I have tried to commit suicide and maybe if someone would have been there to talk to maybe I wouldn't have gone as far as I did.

You could also talk to some friends (I know you said you didn't have a lot but you have some) or talk to people online.....online you could be completely anonymous.

Answer 5

Whatever the cause, there is a reason you feel depressed. Depression is not just a state of mind, but is related to physical changes in the brain. I had trouble in high school with it to the point of thinking about being suicidal. I found out my thyroid was off and I had a weak immune system. There are many symptoms for thyroid problems and one of them for me was depression. I went of my antidepressant medication and went on thyroid medication. I gradually felt better and I no longer am depressed or have suicidal thoughts. I just needed the correct medication, not a counselor or antidepressants. You may want to check with your parents to see if they can get you to a doctor. I'm not suggesting you have a thyroid problem, but there is a reason you feel depressed. Seeing an endocrinologist was the answer to my problem. You need to find out what is causing your depression, so you can feel better. I hope this helps!

Take care :)  

Answer 6

Coming from someone who once felt she had nothing to live for I really understand your feelings. I know that I am just a stranger, but please please please feel free to email me anytime. I know what that kind of darkness is, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Please know that someone loves you, even without knowing you, and I'm here for you day and night, suicide is not the way to go, cause if it doesn't work, you're left with scars on your wrists and seizures if you take certain medications, and that's just coming from me. My thoughts are with you, and my offer is genuine, best of luck.

Answer 7

I know what it's like to have those pervasive suicidal thoughts. They come out of nowhere, and you feel like you can't go on. These thoughts have been with me my entire life, and I (obviously) never did anything about them; I just wallowed in my depression.

Then, my Dad committed suicide last December. It was the most traumatic thing I have experienced and I will never wish it on anyone. I have no idea why he did it, so now I'm stuck with the pain of losing him, wondering what was going through his head, and the mental images that come about from the things I know, that he shot himself in the head while lying in his bathtub.

I will never put any of my loved ones and friends through the same h**l we've gone through this year. Much as I might entertain suicidal thoughts, I am NOT ALLOWED to go through with it. Much as I might think no one really cares, I know I'd be wrong.

I am trying to find ways to bring myself out of my depression, because I wouldn't wish the pain of losing someone to suicide on anyone.

Answer 8

You should check out suicideforum.com. It is a great pro life forum for people in crisis, it has helped me a lot

Answer 9

girlllll sont be thinkin crazy now. suicide is serious. d oyu reallly want to throw away a life god made for yu, yur in gods path n if yu wannna give up dat will hurt him. n get a counselor. n try to get friends JOIN A CLUB. ull find soemone girl <33333333