Im really depressed..please help me =[?

Question

i want to be home schooled sooo badly because everyone makes me feel so stupid and i always feel so alone at my school, i have friends but i never see them =[

my mom agreed i could probably be home schooled 2 weeks ago but she said it would take a while to figure it all out, but she is taking forever and barely even trying to help me, she keeps saying just be patient its not that big of a deal but its gotten to the point where i have been cutting myself and making myself puke all the time, idk why im doing this but it just makes me feel better i guess, my mom doesnt think i should be homeschooled and thinks i have no reason to be home schooled but being at school really sucks for me, im afraid to try and be smart because if i get it wrong everyone will make fun of me because they all think im dumb, i just want to be able to learn without all this fear of being laughed at all the time, im already going through enough because my dad died and my mom acts like she loves my sis more then me, if im really upset and crying my mom will get mad at me but if my sis is upset my mom hugs her and is really nice to her! and my sis is way older then me so i dont get it =[, and if i tell my mom about how it makes me feel she gets really mad and says how could you ever think i love ur sister more, but she acts like she does! i dont know what to do anymore i feel so alone, im taking meds for depression and seeing a pyschiatrist but i still feel sad, i just want to be home schooled and for my mom to treat me equally 2 my sister

what should i do???

Answer 1

I went through basically the same **** from 2004-2006. I was uncomfortable with the vibe the High Schools gave off, disliked most of the students and figured I had enough issues to deal with besides hearing **** from teachers with a god complex and typical, run of the mill, preppy students. Within two years I went from a catholic school, to home schooled(by a teacher, not family or anything) to a public school in manhattan, to a public school in upstate ny, and then to a GED program in nyc. Of all these places I felt most at ease atHome schooll(reason was actually cause I broke my leg, butI 'm happy I did cause the catholic school was inevitably going to wind up ending horribly one way or the other...coughdamn uptight religious elitistspricks coughh) and the GED center.

Answer 2

You have way more problems that anyone on the website can answer.  Since you are in school anyway why not go to your school counselor and tell him or her how you fell.  There is way too much going on here for you to deal with alone.  go tomorrow and try and get help at school.  

Answer 3

I went through the same thing in school...

When I got old enough I droped out and went to a GED school. It was much better for me. There were about 10 kids total in my class.

However I do sometimes wish I stayed in school. There is no class reunions for me. I cant go back and show everyone who I am now. To show that They were wrong about me. If you are able to get home schooled thats great. Talk to your mom one one one.

tell her "mom i need to talk to you alone..its important to me."

Tell her how you feel.

Use I statements not you statments

like

I feel you love my sister more than me and it hurts

not

you love your sister more than me

It wont seem like you are attacking her and she will have an easyer time of listing

tell her school is really hard for you and that it depersses you. Tell her how you feel!

Good luck to you. God bless