Im starting to think that I need help.

Question

Ever since my brother died ive been in a hard spot. Im stuck in a contract that I absolutely cant stand and hate my life during the week days. I'm pretty sure that dying would be alot funner.

The weekends I find myself not going out anymore and ignoring friends. Then I feel as if they all hate me, but really I think its just that I ignore them, I blame everyone else for the things that happen to me and im so negative nowdays. I feel like the good times are nowhere to be found and im only 22.

I hate being honest with myself. But this is how I honestly feel if not more.

Answer 1

This is a tragic thing that you have gone through.  GONE THROUGH is the focus here.  YOU CAN get through this difficult time. It is good to grieve and is necessary.  

Now it is time to focus and do whatever you have to do to move on to YOUR future.  Know what it is you want to achieve in your situation and then progressively work toward that goal. A contract usually has to run its course so believe you can get through it and at the same time make a Plan where you want to be.

Your belief system is the most important thing you can work on here.

In your plan, feed yourself on positive and hopeful thoughts. I suggest you get yourself this personalized book with YOUR name throughout the book.  It is full of daily affirmations about just YOU !  This will help you make a plan and encourage you to work toward something.  YOU can do something to encourage yourself and inspire HOPE !  Only you can do this for yourself..I love my book and it has change my belief and hope that I was created for a purpose and I can work toward that purpose. Search for that purpose and you WILL find it !  Believe you will receive and you will. It is a progressive path and you can find what it is...I love this book and hope you will get yourself one..It is  personalized only for you. Learn who you are and who you are meant to become..You can do this !  The book can be ordered at the site in the source line below. It is very powerful ! Believe in yourself and believe and know there is a way for you to pursue a great future. Choose to believe and then move forward in your life....Your future is NOT hopeless !  Change your thought patterns and change the world around you.  

Answer 2

you just need to let out your emotions somehow - you are grieving.   The problem with grieving is that people when they are grieving go to a doctor and get a pill but the pill can't help you grieve.  why not write down how you feel or something.  it's a thing that takes time to work through.  

Answer 3

Woah, tough situation.. I don't want you to think im telling you you're crazy or anything but I think the best thing to do would be to go to a therapist, they will help you cope with your brothers death.

Answer 4

I think you should consult a doc and see if there is any medication that can just get you through this rough spot.  There is nothing wrong with a little help.