Ok, so here I go again.......My bestfriend just called me telling me that she went on a date with this really cute guy ladayadaya......
anyway she kept talking about how much she likes him and stuff and the one thing that really made me think was when she starting talking about how my other friends are now in a relationship and stuff....
so then I told her that I feel like EVERYONE is in a relationship EXEPT FOR ME! and she felt bad, but I felt bad and selfish for making her feel bad because this was her time to share her fun with me.....
anyway it got me thinking a lot, and I've felt like this for a while.....I've been single for almost a year and a half now, and I know it's because it's my senior year and I'm sick of the people in my school (sick of seeing them everyday, since I grew up with them)
and I think....well I know that I'm not really going out (not at all) or going anywhere....all I do is go to work, go home, go to work, go home......and mainly because after work i'm so exhausted to do anything that I don't feel like it.......
I know to find new people I have to go somewhere different....but see....the only friends I have that are single like me, that won't talk about guys, is my best-guy-friend.......
I don't want to ask him for any advice on it because I feel stupid talking and complaining about it. I KNOW its something stupid to be upset about not being taken, but I just can't help it.....
especially since my ex broke my heart really bad....I feel and KNOW I should enjoy life, I'm turning 18 in a couple of days, I know I should feel optomistic about this next year and what being 18 will bring to me....PLUS it's my senior year......
I don't know I just want help and for you guys to please give me some advice....I'm feeling pretty left out and upset.....
Thank you all for your time and help, I really appreciate it!
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