This is something that i have found intriguing of the past two years. I am 22 and going into my fifth year in college. School starts on monday but it isn't a big deal to me. I can remember even two years ago the first day of school was a huge deal. I always got anxious right before and i would always wish that i had more time off. I would spend the last few days of summer making sure i was totally ready. Getting my cloths together, getting a hair cut, finding all my school stuff, etc. Then on the first day, i would make sure everything was perfect.
But now, i don't really care. Last year i sort of prepared on the last day of summer break but really nothing too special. This year, i nearly forgot that tomorrow is the last day of summer break. Of course i was aware that i am going to school on monday but it doesn't feel like a huge event like it used to. No anxiety, no apprehension, no excitement, no desire to make the most of it or prepare in really any way.
The only reason i remembered that tomorrow is the last day is because my car needs gas before i head to school, then it just kind of dawned on me that tomorrow is the last day of summer break.
It just doesn't feel like a big deal in any way. I have no emotional reaction to this, which seems strange to me, since it always had in years past. Have you got to the point where you no longer feel that the first day of school is a big deal?
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