Is it a such thing as thinking that your life is cursed?

Question

No matter how much good i do for ppl, no matter how much i love and care for ppl, no matter how much i pray and go to church and try to be the best man i can be, i still am left VERY unhappy, lonley, depressed, lost, confused. I cry alot and wonder and ask God Why all the time. I could've had $10,000+ in my savings right now at the age of 21, but i let my mom borrow $500. And during the time i gave her up to a few hundred just from the heart, let my aunt borrow $350 over a year ago and she still has yet to pay me back, i moved my cousin in over a month ago and spent over $500 before he got a job buying him food and taking him out and letting him drive my car, and he shorts me over $100 every week on payimg me back and rent/utilities, my ex refuses to love me and what i deserve after i spent over $5000+ on him in the past 2 years. Recently spent over $2500 moving us into a 2bdrm, 2 1/2 bath townhome for him to leave after a week. now i have to pay $720/mo rent + utilities myself, plus eat, gas and have money for myself to enjoy. I now live paycheck to paycheck. I would rather sit at home all weekend alone, sad and crying because the one i gave my all to is refusing to be with me. I pray to God and ask him what i can do to change things and i don't get anything! Everybody i encouter say that i am arrogant, mean, think i know everything, think i'm better than everybody, etc. I mean i must admit i do have an attitude issue and i do like to think of myself as one of the best at what i do, and so on, but i admit to that, and know i have to work on those things, but i also am that way for a reason and just need for ppl to understand me b4 just saying those things and not giving me a chance. I never really hjad a mom or dad who loved me, cared for me, done much for me, nor been there for me much. I do SOOOO much for ppl but they never seem to appreciate it or seem to be there for me when i need them. I can go on and on. But what do you think from what i just said? Am i cursed? If not, what is it, and what can i do for my life to be reversed?

Answer 1

I used to be in ur same situation. It really doesnt matter how much good u do. Just look at life as it is, a cruel place with dominance. u just gotta see wat is most important and do wat u gotta do.  

Answer 2

I do not believe that anyone's life can be cursed by an outside force or as part of karma or anything else. It is for us to balance what we do in all things & be correctly well motivated.

It seems to me you have been over-generous with money. People will always take if they can - sometimes it is better to make them earn it for themselves, or at least make an arrangement for repayment should you choose to loan.

Boyfriend not with you - only you can decide if his reasons are valid. If they are not it is for you to put an end to the relationship.

All of the above boils down to positivity, not negativity.

Focus - it is all about focus. Don't complain at the situations you have put yourself in. Actively work to turn your own life around. There is no deity going to wave a magic wand and no deity has planned to put these difficulties in your way.

Focus, focus, focus and all will be well. Best wishes. UK