I have a heart condition and the doctors will not treat it.
I know that it will kill me eventually, but I do not know how long it will take.
I have several problems with the people of Earth.
The main reason why I feel that there is no point to being alive is because of the hatred from the people I live with.
One woman just said she would hit a 15 month old baby, that just about does it for my wishes to remain alive!
I know my heart is so very sensitive to people's feeling, so much so that I feel I have to hide it due to the fear of rejection.
Also I have to consider the fact that if I am dealing with abuse against me in my life that I cannot do things like recording people and so on.
I also get continuously moaned about by people that I am badly behaved, they complain about me all the time.
If think about the fact that they are so evil and selfish, then I cannot trust their moral values. Therefore there is nothing to compare mine against. How can I know how to behave?
I also find it impossible to fully appreciate the magnitude of such selfishness, it is like trying to swallow a great melon. I cannot get my head round the scale of it.
This is particularly the case for selfish arrogant woman who feel they have a right to kill their babies by aborting them. I saw the photo's on the internet of dead babies; I was trying not to cry, but I just had to know what it looked like.
I do not know how to deal with it.
There is such a lacking of feeling of compassion, I can't cope with how lacking it is. It is natural to think that I can go and talk it through with someone until I realize that they are just the same way.
I wouldn't be suprised if there is a woman who has s*x, just so that she can watch her baby get aborted, cut up and thrown in a bin for her own sexual enjoyment of watching it scream when it's limbs are sliced off alive.
I annoy people so much when I have to bully them into not doing something that does not risk my life because of my medical condition, therefore I have to consider the arguements supporting suicide as well as the arguements against.
The purpose of life cannot include fighting with each other and that is not what I am doing by forcing them to aviod risking my life.
I have to consider it and I have, but I am not at all sure.
I doubt you will have any respect for what I say, because you are the same way inclined, but just assume you were not and you did care as much as I do; would you agree with me that I should end it here and now?
I have seen evidence of the after-life and seen a ghost.
It shall not be long before my medical condition kills me anyway.
Should I take my life?
Snow Man
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