well... i'm still mad from what happened in may. i've always been first chair in honors band (last year i was in seventh grade), and my friends said i was really good, and i always got the solo parts. (i play the flute, btw.) and all of a sudden, i got nervous (i don't usually get nervous) and i messed up on my audition for the chair seating for next year! arrrghhh... and i bumped down to fourth chair. my friends keep on telling me it'd be fine, but i'm still mad at myself. i feel so stupid to mess up on it b/c i sounded fine and then i just suddenly started sweating and messed up on my scales and everything... is this normal? =( i think i'm a horrible player now... and i got so mad and i still am. i wanna quit band now. i know there are gonna be more chair tests next year, but... idk. is it normal to be nervous and mess up?
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