Is it normal to feel so depressed? Should i get help?

Question

I've had trouble with my social life for a while. I had no friends in my grade 6, and then in junior high I had some friends who were nice but I also had a lot of people being mean to me and talking behind my back and laughing at me. Im in gr 10 and I have no current issues like that, I have a lot of very good trustworthy friends but as a result of those expericences, I feel a lot of anxiety around people (everyone, even very close friends, but not family) and can't stand crowds. I hate talking on the phone or in front of groups. I do a very good job of not letting my anxiety show and i try not to avoid situations like parties and things but I only end up feeling nauseous and jumpy.(not fun) I don't invite people over ever.

Also my self-esteem is low. And i feel guilty about silly things. And recently, for no apparent reason, it became even worse. And now i feel very very depressed, and my anxiety is worse. however, a lot of good things are happening to me. But i can't feel happy ever. I hide it well, but I hurt so much. Sometimes I even want to die just to make it stop. I hate it. Is this normal? I don't have any other problems in my life, so I'm not sure. Am I just weak?

Answer 1

I don't know what to tell you. I am going through the same thing. I am in 8th grade. Just going to school is torture. I hate being in crowds. And sometimes I cry for no apparent reason or over something stupid. We need help.

Answer 2

I'm the same,only I had to go to therapy(or counciling)because I harmed myself.

It depends on how long you've felt this way,(for example:I'm only 13 and I've been depressed for 3 years)but it's probably the fact that you might be very sensitive or you might still be trying to figure out who you really are because:

1)You might be more mature than others or

2)You have alot going on in your life.

Thats what my counsler(how do you spell it?)told me.