I have an alcoholic, gambling and drug addict mother. (Who is in denial and says that everyone does it... And refuses to admit she has a problem) Anyway, every day she does it in front of me...Snorts it right in front of me... Licks it. She says that no one cares and that she can do whatever she wants when I ask her to stop. I've asked her to at least stop doing it when I am around (which is all day basically) and she says don't watch me or go in the other room and that 'she can do whatever she wants'. Even though I was in that room first! Even when I go in the other room, I still can hear her do it. It makes me so depressed. She stays up ALL NIGHT doing it and when she falls asleep she leaves it out... And I SEE it. Needless to say, I tried it... Just to see what it's like...Never would do it again.
We (everyday) get into heated arguments. I already know everyone outside hears us since the walls are like paper thin. I'm SO embarrassed to go outside because of this.So I don't, I stay in.. And she screams when she yells. She's always calling me mean names. She even through scissors and knife on me... She brings up my weight and school, how I can't go to school like a normal kid.( Have trouble with school) And all these MEAN things which makes me retaliate by calling her names and bringing up her problems..
Am I wrong for calling her names when she does this to me? What should I do? I'm just so depressed!
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